Hiety Ho my Loverlies!!!

How are you this Tuesday Morning? I  know that for me.. this Tuesday morning is dreary and overcast.. the water is moving pretty rapidly on the potomac… I kinda can’t wait till the weather stabilizes itself in a 65-70 degree Run… instead of 70 today and 35 tomorrow… It gets kinda depressing when you can’t really get excited about your New $15.00 Halter dress from Ross when you walk outside and it’s really chilly!  And I have THREE pair of awesome Peep Toe Shoes that are sitting in Boxes WAITING for me to put them on and enjoy the breeze as it hits my toesies… freshly pedicured that is. Waiting on that shift of consistantly warmer weather to get a Pedicure.. No sense when tomorrow I’ll have to wear socks again. Boo.

Yesterday I took off from work which was WONDERFUL! (sorta) It was nice to not have to wake up early.. BUT I think I kinda ruined Peters only day off this week with my annoying clean freak tendencies. And I also think that from time to time.. I have a low blood sugar thing.. if I don’t eat and i’m hungry..I get SERIOUSLY irritable!!! Whew! It’s like I become this raging bull.. that wants to run (drive) fast and butt my head up against anything that moves quickly. Whew. (Sorry Honey.)  Peter said he’s going to start to carry a candy bar in his pocket to calm me down when I “get” that way again. (Make it a LOWFAT Granola bar and it’s a deal!) Anyway.. I know I can get pretty hard to handle at times. Unfortunately.

Peter got us AWESOME Diamond Club Seats for the Washington Nationals Opening Day Game…(Check out the Pics on my Flickr) through someone he knows at the Restaurant (of course.. he knows Everyone!) And They had IN SEAT Food Service.. Someone who comes and takes your “order” at your seat (2 hot dogs and 2 beers please!) It was so cool! We were seated right behind home plate!! There was some issue with the Kitchen… so our food was VERY DELAYED (see above with regard to low blood sugar) So I was a HUNGRY GRIZZLY BEAR before the 3rd inning to tell you the truth!!!! (putting it mildly) but once we got that figured out… We had such a GREAT time!!!! I don’t really subscribe to any particular team.. but just love Baseball in General. (Reminds me of my Grandpa… watching the Game with no sound on .. on the back porch of the house) I had a GREAT time with my honey.

Also can’t forget to mention our Easter Dinner with the Neighbors (again.. check out my Pictures) It was a great time.. good food… good friends.. still a little chilly out… Grr.. but I am blessed to have such great Neighbors. My cup runneth Over.

Okay… Feel like doing 3 things 2 things:

3 things that make me happy:

1. Texting Back and Forth with my Best Friend Matthew today. I am so grateful to have him in my life… I can’t say it enough.
2. Liking my haircut! (Just got little layers for some more flippy doo dah at the bottom) Can’t really tell too much… but to me.. I can.
3. Feeling Really Sexy in my $15.00 Ross Dress on Easter
4. My Gratitude Journal that I got at the NBM Shop while Volunteering on Sunday! I haven’t written in it yet but I will start tonite Before catching some zzz’s.

2 things I look forward to today:

1. Going HOME and doing ALL my laundry.. and cleaning out my closet… I’ve been SO slack in the laundry/clothes area of my life. I need to really put some focus there.. spend a few hours purging/organizing.
2. I’m going to go to the grocery and getting the ingredients for a Strawberry Chicken Salad in a Whole Wheat Pita! YUM! I’m going to make a big batch so we can eat it for a few days for dinner! Actually been wanting to really focus on different Chicken Salads for dinner.. as a healthy alternative.

2 long term things I look forward to:

1. This weekend Kristy and I are going to a free Workshop at the Inner Arts Center about MUSES & INNER CRITICS: Understanding and living with your subpersonalities)
2. So many things to do, friends to catch up with this Spring! Sitting outside at a restaurant (Healthy that is!) Potting Plants… Summer dinners with Neighbors.. Running 5K Races.. (about to sign up for another one with my girlfriend Steph!)  Getting the final arrangements for the Wedding in September… Cute new Shoes… Strawberry Smoothies.. the way that my feet feel on the grass… eating lunch on the Bench outside my office…. Going to Charleston for a MUCH needed Kindred Spirit weekend with my girl Michelle… Going bowling and to a baseball game with my Dad… Planning more itinerary for our Honeymoon to Italy… Daydreaming about Baby “things”…
                                                            i could go on……….

1 person I am going to appreciate:
My love… Peter My love… God Bless that man.. putting up with the Grizzly Bear yesterday.. saying “Relax Baby RELAX!!” When I get all fired up and anxious about something… I don’t know how he does it. I can be such a handful sometimes…. It’s like I know I need to calm down but I just seemingly cannot.. I wish I could slap myself sometimes. I look at him.. and I KNOW… this is meant to be… All the years that passed.. the experiences we had.. both together and apart.. that made us 100% ready for where we are… It’s like beyond words. I can’t tell you how amazing it feels when.. I’ll be sitting at my desk upstairs.. and He’ll call to me.. “Honey?” and I’ll say.. Yes? and come to the stairs..and he’ll say.. “I love you very much.” Oh man… what an amazing feeling.  We have so much fun laughing and just being ourselves (even the yucky parts) that I feel so ‘at home’ when I am with Peter.

Ok.. Enough yapping from me… Hope you have a great day!!!!
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Hi there my people…

What a loverly weekend. I’m at work now.. looking out the window at the Potomac River.. very calm water today… watching the runners and bikers go on by… like an old Fashioned Lazy Sunday…. and I feel good.. Had a good weekend so far.. Spending time with my sister… seeing old friends (Corin AWESOME to see you girl! I can’t believe I brought my schnazzy camera and I forgot to take a dang picture of us! Argh!) Eating YUMMY pancakes with Peanut Butter/Honey, Bacon and Bananas.. Oh my gosh HEAVEN!!!)  Going shopping at Macys (looking for a dress for nexts weeks engagement session) and finding this AWESOME Sweater for $7 bucks!!!! Coming home to watch Rachel Getting Married  – really liked it. And ending our evening with a loverly dinner at LIAS chatting up with everyone… So nice to see Peter in his environment.  Today I did my usual Coffee/Paper/Sunday Morning Edition with my girl.. took this cutie picture of her on my lap. She makes my heart comforted… listening to her purr on my lap.. her little whiskers twitching as she has little kitty dreams.. I love her. She is my heart.

Isn't she the cutest?

ok feel like 3 things 2 things today:

3 things that make me happy:
1. Listening to my Sirius Radio (The CHILL channel) here on my computer at work while I do work. (yes, I’m really working.. just want to write a bit today)
2. Wearing my new shoes (I bought (3) pair for $60 bucks online last week – yes, i’ve become a bit of a shopaholic… meh.. it’s only because I feel so good about myself lately.. I want the outside to match the inside. Need to wait till it gets little warmer out to wear them.
3. My sparkly and beautiful Friend Roxanne Passed Her LEED Exam yesterday!!! WAY TO GO ROXY!!! I’m so proud of you!!!! Let’s get together and celebrate!!!!

2 things that I’m looking forward to today:
1. I am going to get out of here at 3 and go take a NAP!! An actual nap!!! I feel like I need one.
2. Peters bringing home steaks and we’re sitting outside with our neighbors tonite.. I just love our little group of people, sitting outside chatting it up.. It makes me happy in my soul.

2 long term things I look forward to:
1. Oh my gosh ~ Peter and I are having our engagement Session with our Awesome Photographer this upcoming weekend. I’m actually nervous.. I’ve never been the subject of dedicated photos before…. and yes.. while I like having my photo taken.. Michael is a pro… and an artist so I’m nervous that I do what is asked of me so he can create a beautiful shot!!! (And… Peter has a tendency to not keep a straight face so we’ll have to see how that goes!)
2. This week I’ll be getting in Disc 2 of Sigur Ros – Heima.. I can’t wait.. Just laying on the couch taking more of their magical music in… Ahhhh.

1 person I am going to appreciate:
Me. Long story but I have run into a road block with regard to getting a permit to have our wedding ceremony in Founders Park… (UGH!!) So I contacted the MAYOR of Alexandria and his office wrote me back this past week!!! I am hopeful to have it solved (in my favor of course) this week!!! Again.. my philosophy of  “What do I REALLY have to lose???” proves me right… NOTHING!!! I have nothing to lose!!!!!!

Ok my loverlies… I will end by saying that I am constantly inspired by the amazing Blogs that are online right now.. I could just swim in their inspiration and devotion forever… I want to focus on (1) amazing woman who has brought me to SO many other inspiring artists/spirits.. I am in awe of her.. her story… and her boho world. Please.. check her out as I pay homage to someone I deeply appreciate.

Much Love! Hope your having a great weekend too!!!
Kerilyn (and Pez!)

Hi folks..

What’s up? Friday.. another cold day… I don’t feel like being chipper and happy today… Feel down right blah to tell you the truth… I feel like I need a really need a good cry.. into my soul cry…a cry that lasts a long while.. and leaves me feeling spent..where I then fall into a deep sleep and wake up a while later… feeling refreshed and anew.

This week for me has definitely been about Change.. I’ll tell ya… Change for the country and Change for me individually… I feel a Shift.. Funny.. I’m reading this rockin book called “The Shift” right now.. (Thanks Auntie) and it’s about an energy shift in the way in which we look and deal with our government.. And didn’t that totally shift this week… I had an amazing experience on Tuesday at the Inauguration…. blew my mind…

There is definitely something Bigger going on here.. again…individually and universally.

My wonderful Auntie sends me my Numerology Chart Every year.. This year has never been so RIGHT ON.. As I share with you all..

“PERSONAL YEAR 2009 – 9

The tide is out in a 9 year, but the harvest is in! This is the year of rewards for all the effort you have made in the past eight years. This is the end, the conclusion of your nine-year cycle, so the seeds you planted in your 1 year are now harvested.

When the tide goes out, it means that the ending of a cycle is at hand, and the energy of this year is more about letting things go, finishing, and dreaming about the next nine years. It is time to re-vision, dream and envision once again how you would like your life to proceed, to allow things to conclude, and wait, because the beginning that you sense is coming is for next year. This is also a time for healing and dreaming on both a figurative and literal level. Have a massage and pay attention to your dreams.

On another note, this is a good money year, because efforts of selfless giving and loving are favored and rewarded this year. Of course the reverse can be true as well.

If you are behaving selfishly and needing to revamp your money picture, with this number of endings, it may be a trying time for money. Do not despair, next near is a 1 year and starting anew is always favored under a 1.

The 9 year means it is a time for you to forgive and forget. Use this year to complete things and bring things to closure on every level. More than any other year, this is the time to follow your intuition and seek to perfect what was begun eight years before.

It is a time for tying everything together, and if you do not take time for finishing things this year, you will most likely find your unfinished business lurking about and needing to be faced again, in nine years.”

Holy Moly.. I don’t know if I could have said it better myself! Now (2) ships; 1 relationship and 1 friendship have now ended. It has found me running the gammit of different emotions.. back and forth, round and round like a pendulum.. anger.. abandonment…sadness.. fear… dissapointment..a freeing as well… the feeling of loss of someone no longer being in your life… that once was very important. Their energy is still there.. I can feel them… in my heart.. like the warmth in a bed.. reminder of what was just there.. but knowing that when you look over or put your hand there.. they’re no longer there.

Another eyeopener for me is this surprise discovery of the importance and unwaivering faith I put in my deepest ‘ships’ (Relation and Friend). Finding myself taking them down off the pedestal that I have put them on.. admittedly….And deciding to either give them a dusting off to bring back their shine or taking them down all together.. Amazingly 2 doors have closed now and I find other doors are re-opening in my life in the same amount of time… rekindling of old friends…Who knows why? But I’ll ride the wave.. buckle my seatbelt as my beloved Auntie says.. and continue to go for the Ride.

Only God knows where it will take me next?

This week I am also very proud of myself.. I love myself. I love who I am.. I have really grown.. I can feel it… Today I feel quite vulnerable and quiet.. underbelly exposed… But I feel I have went into the frey.. sparred with a Kindred Spirit and came out.. bruised and tender to the touch.. but standing strong that I followed my gut.. I didn’t second guess myself.. It felt right. I am proud of myself.. I want to give myself a Gold Star for all the expansion I’ve seen in myself this year.

Have a good weekend.. I will have a quiet one.. as I continue to heal.. and grow stronger as the wound closes up a little bit more every day.

Much Love,
Kerilyn

PS: While I’m feeling a bit melancholy today.. do NOT let me let you think how EXCITED and EXPECTANT I am for all the BEGINNINGS that are coming this year too.. I am SO BLESSED!!!! Whew.. blows my mind!! Yippee! just feeling the dark side of the moon today…