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Peter and I… being.. well.. ourselves.
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Hiety Ho my lovelies!!

How are you? Wednesday! The sun is out and is sparkling on the Potomac River this morning! So pretty!

Well… last nite I did a video to share with you but I look really tired on it.. HUGE bags under my eyes.. so I decided against it. I’ve been working late.. and then staying up late farting around (like watching Season Finale of Greys Anatomy and Hells Kitchen) … so I am just looking a little tired.. I’m working on a Furniture bid for a potentially 1000 station job which I HOPE we win!!! Fingers crossed. I really think winning this would be the answer to my needing a challenge in my job. With that said.. I’ve been working hard on this. Yawn. And.. adding to the working late I didn’t get to exercise Monday and Tuesday so I just feel off. It’s amazing how Icky I feel when I don’t exercise. It’s become a routine every day for almost a year.. and I really miss it when I don’t do it.

And Thursday I fly off into the Wild Blue Yonder to touch down in Charleston, SC for the Memorial Weekend. Going to visit with my best friend Michelle and I am SO DANG EXCITED!!! I need a few days out of dodge.. new scenery.. new food/experiences (going to try a yoga class with her) little pampering with a facial and maybe.. just maybe.. another tattoo for each of us. I am antsy to go!!!

Random FYI: I still have not had any coffee since ending my cleanse. It’s kinda blowing my mind. It’s not like I don’t LOVE the taste of coffee! I do.. I just don’t feel the need to have some. Interesting. I see a cup of coffee in my future with Michelle though.. it’s what we do! Yippity Skippity!

Okay… Nothing really exciting is going on.. so I’m going to do a 3 things 2 things and bid you adieu.

3 things that make me happy:

1. I’ve never really been a Fish Person.. but I’ve really taken to eating Salmon lately… it tastes so yummy. Peter made me this amazing salad yesterday. Salmon, Asparagus, Strawberries.. Can I say YUM!!!!
2. The smell of Aveda Hand Relief Lotion.. it’s a really nice smell to wake me up here at my desk.. Ahh.
3. Ladybugs. I love ladybugs. I really dont’ like bugs crawling on me.. but I make an exception for a Ladybug.

2 things that I look forward to today:

1. Exercising finally! If it’s nice outside like it looks like it is.. I’m runnin outside!
2. Catching up with my friend Kim tonite.

2 long term things I look forward to:

1. Trying on my Wedding Dress for the first time (Doesn’t come in till August – unfortunately/FORTUNATELY it’s going to need some serious alterations cause It’ll have to be taken in 3/4 sizes. Oh well. That’s a blessing!
2. HOT weather! It hasnt’ been hot yet this year and I LOVE the HOT vs. the cold.

1 person I am going to appreciate:

My best friends. Kyra.. you are awesome that you have gratiously taken on doing the invites for the wedding. I am so grateful!!! Thank You. Matthew.. I love that you’re starting to “get it” with respect to Being a GREAT SUCCESS!!!.. I can see it/hear it before my eyes and it makes me very proud! Now GO AFTER IT!!!! Find other Diamonds like yourself!!! Michelle.. Sigh.. am SO excited to drop into your life for a few days for solace and needed comfort. (and hopefully lots of laughter) and Kristine.. for being one step ahead of me with most things in my life.. If it weren’t for you.. SO many things wouldn’t have happened. Naomi… (Moment of Silence) . I am so grateful for all of you. Thank You for making me who I am today. I love who I am.  Kristy – Thank you for being my partner in most things here in the area. Thank you for letting me lean on you when I need some deep exploration into myself. I am so grateful you and I are on the same page.  Auntie.. for being my Spiritual ”Nurse” .. who.. in moments of my own doubt and indecision.. give me the “medicine” to get me back on track. I am so grateful I can call you anytime and you make me feel loved Every Moment. I am so glad we decided to come here at this time together.

I could go on and on with my friends……  this would be a VERY long Posting. Ha!

Oh well. I hope you all have a wonderful Memorial Day weekend. Hopefully I’ll have pics to post to you during the weekend if not After.
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Hi Everyone!!

How are you doing? I’ve been feeling thirsty for writing you all… Craving a nice long Rambling to you.. Hope you don’t mind. Have lots of things swimming around in this head of mine that I need to get out.

I’m doing Fabulous! I feel great today… I’m almost giddy… moments of intense internal high energy… bursting at the seams! SO many exciting things coming in my life, I can barely contain it all! I think I’m almost not believing that it’s a smidge over FOUR MONTHS till Peter and I get married!  Holy Moly!!! It’s kinda blowing my mind! All these fun events like Food Tastings at the Hotel and meeting the Music Coordinator is being scheduled.. and it’s getting closer to work with our Wedding Coordinator, Chantal. My girlfriend Kyra is working on the invites.. and then a wonderful former co-worker of Peters.. Erin of Haute Papier is helping us with the Printing! My sister is working now on the Programs to give to Kyra so she can do her artistic thang and It’s so exciting!!! Just to vent and get this off my chest… I think all we have to do is.

1. Rings
2. Flowers – Going to a local Farm with my friends Scott and Roxanne who are going to be helping with this part.
3. Place Cards
4. Hotel Welcome Bags
5. Veil/Shoes
6. Favors
7. Gifts for our Wedding Party

I think that’s it.. and as far as I’m concerned the stuff above is the fun stuff. Anything I’m forgetting? Besides forking over thousands of dollars? HA HA HA!!!  Well Regardless of that.. I am so excited!! Talking to my friends the past few days about their plans to come into town.. has me all excited inside. Seeing some friends that I haven’t seen in FOREVER has me very excited!!! Truth be told I regularly visualize/daydream while driving to and from work of dancing with all my friends at the reception and laughing and crying the entire way. I’m so dang lucky. Wow.

*oh and Peter and I still need to plan the rest of our Honeymoon to Italy*

So I’ve transitioned into regular eating after doing my 10 day cleanse.  I think I lost about 10-12 lbs. It’s definitely noticable. I was down in DC yesterday on a job site and I caught my reflection.. usually I pick myself apart in that brief moment but this time I stopped and actually said out loud.. “Damn I’m HOT.” It’s amazing how feeling more comfortable in your own body can totally change your outlook on every aspect of your life. I still have not had coffee and have no desire to eat meat since coming off the cleanse. I plan on doing this cleanse again the 8-20th of September, right before the wedding. I felt great.. VERY clear headed.. and well.. losing another 10 lbs wouldn’t hurt. My wedding dress at this point has to be taken in 3 dress sizes (they always make you order it BIGGER than you really are.. why do they do that? to make you pay for alterations) And I have 4 months to hopefully go down another dress size!

Let’s see.. what else.. I guess the only thing irking me lately is that I’ve been a bit uninspired at work. It’s been kinda slow.. with smaller projects lately and I feel like I need a BIG 500 station job to really keep my attention right now. I really do love what I do.. and I really would love an opportunity to continue the feeling of appreciation I have for what I do.  Staying hopeful something yummy comes my way!

Guess I really need to be honest with myself.. I feel really slack about my Benchmark cards.. it’s been a LONG time since I’ve been enthused about putting my energy in them. Sitting down and working on them. Do I love them still? Oh yes. But I can’t necessarily understand why my drive isn’t there to make more.. and make different.. dedicate my time in the evenings to my inspiration and passion. Interesting… It’s not because I don’t have the time.. because I do. Strange.

What else is going on in this head o’ mine?

I’m REALLY excited to be going down to Charleston next week for a long weekend with my girl Michelle over Memorial Day. I am SO excited to just ‘be’ with her. I need this badly. I need her badly. I need Charleston Badly. When I’m with Michelle I can be myself.. my “Swimming in the Deep End” Self and I never feel like what I am saying is too much for her to handle. On the contrary.. she swims right along with me… This might sound strange.. but part of me aches for her? Side note that I know that I’ve been lately twinging with some unsurfaced feelings about ending my friendship with Naomi back in January who also Swam in the Deep end.. I think I miss that constant exercise of introspection and reflection in my Daily Life.  Michelle and I have lots of fun things on the itinerary.. with one being POSSIBLY getting Tattoos.. I would LOVE a few more pieces of ink and I could think of noone else I’d rather go with.

I think I can go on and on today.. but You probably have other stuff to do.. laundry… dishes.. cook dinner.. so I’ll leave you with my favorite
3 things 2 things  and bid you adieu for now.

3 things that make me happy:

Kerilyn Today!!!

1. Wearing this dress today that used to fit me kinda snuggly but today it’s almost too big on me.. It still looks okay.. but I can definitely feel a difference. Yea! (Here’s a small pic.. you can’t see all of me but you’re going to have to trust me)
2. Looking out the window every morning at the River where I sit and work. So Tranquil.
3. In the morning, my kitty girl Pez stands on my bed and stares at me.. like as if to say “Wake Up Mom!” I love that.. she purrs away. She’s so happy now! I can totally tell a difference!

2 things I am looking forward to today:

1. I have therapy tonite at 7. I haven’t seen her in about a month so it will be nice to talk to her tonite.
2.  Giving running outside another try, yesterday was my first attempt (Had been running inside on the treadmill all this time) and yesterday didn’t go so well. Hopefully today is better (That is… if it doesn’t rain. It’s looking kinda yucky out there right now.

2 long term things I am looking forward to:

1. Well Getting out of town.. Packing a Bag and being free of my Everyday Life for a few days next weekend.
2. In July.. my Girl Kyra and I are going to meet halfway between here and Asheville and we’re going to have our own girls weekend in Roanoke, VA. It’s about a 3.5 Hour trip each way… but it’ll be good to just spend time with my K.

1 person I am going to appreciate:
My sister.. She has done so much for me these past months… I really don’t know what I would do without her. She thinks of things I would never have thought of.. and is so willing to help me.. and spend time with me.. even if I’m not having a happy moment. Love you Kristine!

That’s it for now.. Figure I rambled on enough…
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Hi Ya’ll…. (with my most Severe Britney Spears Accent)

How ya’ll doin? I’m doing great! I figured I’d give you a little ditty into where I’ve been since I haven’t been writing much in the past 2 weeks or so.. Ok so I’ve been doing the Master Cleanse.. I’m on Day 8… 8 of 10. It’s been an interesting 8 days so far.. I haven’t really been too chatty.. and definitely haven’t been really social… as this cleanse needs dedicated home time… (TMI.. trust me..let’s just say theres a reason why it’s called a CLEANSE) and I wanted to really focus on going inside.. and listening to the connection I have to my body… This cleanse is not about just NOT eating for 10 days (I get enough calories and fat with this lemonade concoction that I make every day) but the amazing thing is how much I have fooled my self.. and my body into thinking i’m hungry.. when It’s just a CRAVING..

I’ll tell ya.. on Day 8… I can honestly say I am not hungry.. But Dang it.. A big bowl of Guacamole and Fresh Tortillas and Margarita right now sounds SOOOOOO good. That.. is a CRAVING. It’s an addiction of sorts.. And it’s not even real. It’s in my head. So I have been doing this amazing dance with my body.. trying to retrain it.. and retrain myself to listen to it.. when it REALLY is hungry. I can honestly say I probably do not remember the last time I really listened to my bodys needs.. I just listened to what I wanted instead. I need to dedicate more focus toward caring for and listening to my body. On the UP side.. my skin looks awesome… I have a LOT of energy… (but it’s different.. it’s not like HI! I want to get in your face.. kinda energy.. a more.. Internal High Energy) I’ve probably lost a total of 10lbs in the past 8 days but I don’t weigh myself so I don’t know exactly. I can definitely tell my body has changed. As my sister Kristine says.. I have more of an hourglass shape.

I will just say that first and foremost and probably all that matters.. is I’m proud of myself. I’m proud of myself that I did this.. that I stuck through to 8 days…do NOT let me fool you and say.. “meh.. piece of cake” (aww.. cake..) NO. It isn’t and it wasn’t. But I just KNEW I could do it!!!! And I KNOW that I only have (2) days left. .. then a 3 days ease out… so By Sunday.. which happens to be Peters Birthday and Mothers day.. I will be able to celebrate with everyone with a nice SLIVER of birthday cake if I so desire! Part of me wished that I would’ve taken before and after photos of myself.. because the change is that noticable I think… but when I think about it I really don’t think that I would post them for the world to see.. I’m still successfully working toward my goal… of looking HOT in my wedding dress.. with toned arms and blowing everyone (ESPECIALLY MY LOVE!) away when they see me walking down the aisle.

Ok… Hope all is well in your world… as it is in mine!
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Hi there.

How are you? Monday. Good weekend for the most part. Had an AWESOME facial on Saturday.. my skin still looks good. I already made another appointment for June. Hung out with Kristy a while.. then went home and hung out… rested.. cleaned a little bit, watched this awesome movie, and just tried to relax. Yesterday Peter dragged me to a show at the Expo Center yesterday morning (I’d rather not say what kind of show or what kind of morning we had. Let’s just say I couldn’t wait till getting to my parents house)  then spend the afternoon at my parentals.. celebrating my dads birthday with our familys favorite mom meal, Meatloaf Beatloaf. YUM. It was the entire family, Peter and Kristines husband Steve was there too.. it was nice to have all of us together. (Only body missing was Pez)  I think Peter and I have hit the threshhold of us spending time together.. we’ve been quite bickery lately with each other. He’s changing his schedule so he works till 10pm on Tuesday-Thursday and I am actually kinda grateful.. it will make our spending time together closer. We both are very independent people.. and it’s kinda nice to BOTH have our own space.  It doesn’t feel good to want to be close and mushy with your love.. when you are being bickery with them.  Boo.

So one of my co-workers here in the office introduced a few of us to the Master Cleanse and well.. I really could use a kick start to eating healthier.. and well.. losing a few lbs in the meantime ain’t so bad either… so we decided to do it for 10 days. Today is Day one.. I know it has it’s own sceptics.. and I ask that if you are one, I lovingly request to support me.. even if it is a different choice than what you would make. Again.. with my philosophy of “What do I REALLY have to lose?” Ten Days? Should… go by relatively quickly. I’ve been doing some research online.. others experieinces.. and well.. I know I can do it. I’m still nervous but I reference a book that a friend gave me years ago.. “FEEL THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY.” that’s what I’m doing… I’m doing it anyway.  And AWAY we go!  (For those that don’t know… Basically a Liquid Fast  – drinking a Lemon/Syrup/Cayenne Formula instead of food all day - with a laxative/natural ‘purging’ element to it as well.)

Ok I do have a question for you that has me sincerely intrigued.. and I would love your thoughts on this… I’m not out looking for kudos.. but I’m totally curious..

What is it about ME (Kerilyn Fox) that makes people remember me? I have had some interesting experiences in my life where, after meeting someone once or never but someone sees me from afar,etc… (and me never remembering them) they remember me. Why is that? What is so… memorable about me that they remember me?  I find this so intriguing….. It happened this weekend and I’m just curious.

Peter says it’s cause I’m tall.. and I have big Brown Eyes and a big smile.. (and I do smile at people a lot.. I always catch the cashiers name as I’m taking the receipt at the grocery store and I say with a Big Smile.. “Thanks Judy/Roland/Jamiel!” Maybe that’s why? And that I’m positive. (I have to laugh at this….if you only knew how many times I’m NOT positive.. it sometimes takes some pushing from my inner self to “snap out of it!” and get back to being happy/grateful. I laugh a lot inside about this.)

I also know that I’m an Empath. I’ve tried to deny this but it just is… I have the ability to make others feel what I feel.. Good AND Bad. Trust me.. when Kerilyn is in a bad mood.. WATCH OUT! Everyone can feel it. Same goes when I feel inspired.. I can inspire others. I know this about me… Sometimes it’s not the easiest.. I have a REALLY hard time hiding how I feel.. it’s written ALL over my face.. and in my energy… So you really do get the sense of ‘What you see is what you get”.  As well as…i tend to ‘read’ someone relatively immediately and make a quick and intuitive impression about someone and their nature. I have been wrong on a rare occasion.. (or I might have a STRONG desire to sabotage myself by ’reading’ someone that could validate my lack of self worth – uh don’t make me say their names.) but most of the time.. I’m usually confirmed on my initial impressions. Maybe that’s what it is… that people remember about me? People can sense that i’m wanting to “know’ them.. or ‘read’ them? Does this even make sense?

I’m totally curious.. What is your take?

Will leave you here… Hope you have a great day!
Wish me luck on this Cleanse!!! I know I can do it!!! I can do ANYTHING I put my mind to!!! Yippee!
Much Love,
Kerilyn