from Jen at Bits of Truth

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The other day, as I was leaving the 9-5, walking to the elevator.. I randomly started saying things I know or believe about myself or for myself. (yes, they were out loud and yes, I was by myself but that’s a story for another day) I found myself feeling JOY for feeling these things so then I found myself saying (yes again, out loud)  ”You should write a blog post about all the things you know for sure” (Because let’s face it.. there are a LOT of things I still have NO idea how their going to turn out.) So this is a handful of  things I know or believe about myself. *Some of these things I’ve never shared before. Let’s start with something very important…

1. I love my morning coffee. I look forward to it at night when I go to bed. So much so that I make it at night so I know that when I wake… it will be there.  I have NO interest in ever not drinking coffee. *note: I only drink it in the morning though.. it’s water the rest of the day.
2. I know how I like my coffee. Light and Sweet with Half & Half. Since I never foresee me stopping having coffee in my life, I foresee this formula being what it takes to bring me my morning moment of joy.
3. I would say I’m absolutely morning person. TRUE, I dilly dally WAY too much when having to get ready for the 9-5 but it’s because I just am feeling so happy… in a space that makes me happy, with my coffee, my kitty girl, and my daydreams of what my day would look like if I didn’t have to go to the 9-5.
4. My kitty girl, Pez, is STILL one of the greatest joys of my life. I look at her and I swell with so much  love, receiving and giving and am SO grateful she is  still with me. (Shes about to go into her 16th year) I know she won’t be with me forever and I know (for sure) that the past few months I have purposefully “enjoyed her” more than I ever have.
5. I’m not perfect. AMEN for that. I know (for sure) that I know I’m not perfect. I’m actually really grateful that I know that.
6. For sure, one way to push my buttons is to come across like you know everything. These kinds of people don’t give anyone else the space or energy to have the floor for more than a minute or two. It almost instantly turns back around to them. Or they force this “I know better than you” energy at whoever their speaking to. Interestingly, I seem to resonate with these types of people and I’ve recently discovered it’s because that’s whats mirrored back at myself – I think (whether consciously or subconsciously) that I think I know everything. *I don’t. That’s for SURE. I think that’s why I always say it when talking to people.. I say “you know that I don’t know everything, right?” I don’t like the way it makes me feel so I’m VERY sensitive to others feeling the same from me.
7. I do not like it when people interrupt me by saying my name. Ex. ” I think what it is, KERILYN, is blah blah blah…” Note: I know my name… you don’t have to remind me, thanks. I interpret this moment as someone elses defenses going up. *Same as if they start their words with LISTEN… (I hear this guy in our office say listen almost with EVERY sentence he says…Does he think the person isn’t listening? Whats that all about?)
8. I’m still learning how to best love my husband. Yep. I have my own baggage and sometimes it gets in the way of giving my husband what he needs.
9. I am ALWAYS thinking about money. Computing and calculating in my head.. whenever I go somewhere or am with someone.  How much I have, how much I can spend (more so how much I can SAVE by not spending it)… planning ahead. I have my moments of attempting to throw caution into the wind.. But it’s always on my mind.
10. I really want to be an athletic person. I have had brushes with being more physical, but to date, it has not been a consistent thing in my life. I sometimes crave being a healthy person like we women crave potato chips or M&Ms during that time of the month. I remember, in my beloved Savannah, finishing a 3 or 4 mile run in Forsyth park.. I felt SO good. So accomplished and SO in love with myself that I can get choked up that that moment is now just a memory. *You ask me what’s stopping me from getting there again? Answer: ME!~ I am the thing that’s stopping me.  damn it.
11. I need a generous amount of downtime (which usually involves silence) in order to me to feel grounded. (My husband does NOT, however) If I’m alone, the TV or radio is not on and I’m happy as a clam doing my thang.. in silence. *like today for instance* I am very sensitive to loud noises and almost feel like this sensitivity is growing. I have to be in the mood to listen to loud(er) music.
12. I believe in God with all my heart and my soul. Yep. I consciously remember my independent beliefs about God (separate from what my parents wanted me to believe) when I was 14 years old.  My faith is a VERY important part of who I am, in my everyday life. *even if I’m not talking about it, God is usually on my mind. (I have this assumption that I would be judged if I told people that I believe in God AND reincarnation, energy, psychics, mediums,etc..) *interesting I just told you that.
13. In this past year, I have noticed just how much of my fathers unhealthy, toxic tendencies I have picked up. When I see them (or hear about them) in him, then recognize them in myself – I am ashamed.
14. I wish I gave more time and energy to being more girly. I think because I’ve always been a ‘big girl’ (yes, I said it) I’ve never REALLY taken on the role of girly girl. On the scale of 1-10 (10 of girlyness) I’d give myself a 6. I’d like to be at an 8.5.

I think that’s it for now. Feel free to share your own list of things you know “FOR SURE” or link to your own blog. Thanks for reading, and giving me the energy to share.

Much love,
Kerilyn

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Dear God from Jen at Bits of Truth

1. Gotta say it. Morning Coffee (Hands down)
2. For my job, the 9-5 (more like 9-6) that ALLOWS me the flexibility to make choices that I find desirable to my soul, for my present and into the future. That I work at an office with fellow co-workers that I have already worked with previous… which makes this position i’m in more comfortable.
3. My senses. I am so grateful that I can see (the sparkles the sun makes on the water) hear (music that moves me), taste (Filet Mignon, Guacamole), smell (Coco Chanel, Bacon), touch (Kitty Girl Pez)  and intuit (Thank You Bertha!)
4. That I firmly believe in The Law of Attraction/God/Reincarnation/Spirit/Mediums/Psychics (Even when I am needing a reminder when I feel stuck)
5. For all the lovelies that I have met on The Declaration of You E-Course, through my Coaching Program, Ivy my soul sista at work, the women in my group. I am so grateful.

1. JigsawBox – I participated in a presentation with the creator yesterday, Her coaching/Solopreneurship Platform is EXACTLY what Married to a Chef needs. (In one phrase, it’s 24/7 access to coaching)
2. How homey our new place is going to feel once we get everything set and in place. Ahh…. (Insert Happy Dance)
3. Been itching to get some more tattoos. 1. 3 ladybugs (I’m thinking on my hand/wrist or foot – can’t decide) 2. a phrase with the words ‘JAH’ in them. (ex. JAH GIVE I STRENGTH) (Side note: Check out this inspiring chicas AWESOME  tattoo.. hmm,got me thinkin) 3. The words ‘Ancora Imparo/I am still learning’ above and below my existing tattoo.
4. Having a baby belly. Nuff said.

Hey all – My wonderful friend Fran sent this to me and I thought I would share it with you and well.. whomever else stumbles upon this. It SO relates to what Coaching calls our “gremlin” – the deep core belief, inside ALL of us, that we are not worthy. It LIVES to tell us and show us in a myriad of different ways that we are not good enough… I like this prayer as a way of asking for assistance in bringing awareness to this gremlin.