Posts Tagged ‘Auntie’

High/Low 5.20.09

Wednesday, May 20th, 2009

Hiety Ho my lovelies!!

How are you? Wednesday! The sun is out and is sparkling on the Potomac River this morning! So pretty!

Well… last nite I did a video to share with you but I look really tired on it.. HUGE bags under my eyes.. so I decided against it. I’ve been working late.. and then staying up late farting around (like watching Season Finale of Greys Anatomy and Hells Kitchen) … so I am just looking a little tired.. I’m working on a Furniture bid for a potentially 1000 station job which I HOPE we win!!! Fingers crossed. I really think winning this would be the answer to my needing a challenge in my job. With that said.. I’ve been working hard on this. Yawn. And.. adding to the working late I didn’t get to exercise Monday and Tuesday so I just feel off. It’s amazing how Icky I feel when I don’t exercise. It’s become a routine every day for almost a year.. and I really miss it when I don’t do it.

And Thursday I fly off into the Wild Blue Yonder to touch down in Charleston, SC for the Memorial Weekend. Going to visit with my best friend Michelle and I am SO DANG EXCITED!!! I need a few days out of dodge.. new scenery.. new food/experiences (going to try a yoga class with her) little pampering with a facial and maybe.. just maybe.. another tattoo for each of us. I am antsy to go!!!

Random FYI: I still have not had any coffee since ending my cleanse. It’s kinda blowing my mind. It’s not like I don’t LOVE the taste of coffee! I do.. I just don’t feel the need to have some. Interesting. I see a cup of coffee in my future with Michelle though.. it’s what we do! Yippity Skippity!

Okay… Nothing really exciting is going on.. so I’m going to do a 3 things 2 things and bid you adieu.

3 things that make me happy:

  1. I’ve never really been a Fish Person.. but I’ve really taken to eating Salmon lately… it tastes so yummy. Peter made me this amazing salad yesterday. Salmon, Asparagus, Strawberries.. Can I say YUM!!!!
  2. The smell of Aveda Hand Relief Lotion.. it’s a really nice smell to wake me up here at my desk.. Ahh.
  3. Ladybugs. I love ladybugs. I really dont’ like bugs crawling on me.. but I make an exception for a Ladybug.

2 things that I look forward to today:

  1. Exercising finally! If it’s nice outside like it looks like it is.. I’m runnin outside!
  2. Catching up with my friend Kim tonite.

2 long term things I look forward to:

  1. Trying on my Wedding Dress for the first time (Doesn’t come in till August – unfortunately/FORTUNATELY it’s going to need some serious alterations cause It’ll have to be taken in 3/4 sizes. Oh well. That’s a blessing!
  2. HOT weather! It hasnt’ been hot yet this year and I LOVE the HOT vs. the cold.

1 person I am going to appreciate:

My best friends. Kyra.. you are awesome that you have gratiously taken on doing the invites for the wedding. I am so grateful!!! Thank You. Matthew.. I love that you’re starting to “get it” with respect to Being a GREAT SUCCESS!!!.. I can see it/hear it before my eyes and it makes me very proud! Now GO AFTER IT!!!! Find other Diamonds like yourself!!! Michelle.. Sigh.. am SO excited to drop into your life for a few days for solace and needed comfort. (and hopefully lots of laughter) and Kristine.. for being one step ahead of me with most things in my life.. If it weren’t for you.. SO many things wouldn’t have happened. Naomi… (Moment of Silence) . I am so grateful for all of you. Thank You for making me who I am today. I love who I am.  Kristy – Thank you for being my partner in most things here in the area. Thank you for letting me lean on you when I need some deep exploration into myself. I am so grateful you and I are on the same page.  Auntie.. for being my Spiritual ”Nurse” .. who.. in moments of my own doubt and indecision.. give me the “medicine” to get me back on track. I am so grateful I can call you anytime and you make me feel loved Every Moment. I am so glad we decided to come here at this time together.

I could go on and on with my friends……  this would be a VERY long Posting. Ha!

Oh well. I hope you all have a wonderful Memorial Day weekend. Hopefully I’ll have pics to post to you during the weekend if not After.
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Invoking the Spirit of the Fox

Thursday, April 16th, 2009

Morning!

My wonderful Auntie graciously sent me this (Via Carrie Hart/Quado that I’ve been inspired by for years) and I wanted to share it with you. It inspires me! Being a Fox by Name (until September that is..) I find these words resonate with me… about me.. within me…and I will be invoking the Spirit of the Fox as I continue my journey… The Fox will always live within me… and me in Her.

Fox Power Unleashed
Here, come here, come with me now into this deep thicket.  Feel how
easily you can slip through the secret passageways of life, following
the certain knowledge passed down to you by the generations of foxes
who came before.  It seems dark, but you can see, you can feel what is
around you.  You feel a deep oneness with the ground under your feet
and the foliage tight around you.  There is a deep security and confidence in
your knowingness, for you are the fox and life is an endless series of unfolding
passages known only to you.

At Ease in Social Situations
As a fox, you live easily in many worlds.  One world is that of glorious
sunshine and fellowship, in which your beauty shines out for all to see.
In this world of interpersonal relationships, you are beauty and grace
itself.  You can mix easily with others and have supreme confidence in
your sleek elegance and glowing beauty.  You are always right in all
social situations, for your innate sense of confidence in your own
beautiful shine makes it easy for you to be charming and witty, the center
of attention when you care to be.  All shyness and concern over your
appearance disappear as you walk about easily, knowing that you are
exactly as you should be, looking just as you should look, doing exactly
what is needed in the situation. 

Your social life is easy and flowing.  And it comes from an innate charm,
the charm that is known only to those who are so confident in their
appearance and manner that they are never self-conscious and worried,
but instead can allow themselves to focus easily on others, knowing an
ease in social situations built on a central core of confidence and
self-love.  This ease is now yours, for you are the fox.

The Ability to Blend at Will
Even though you have the ability to shine in the social world, you are
also able to blend in and virtually disappear when that is required or
desired.  You have an uncanny ability to call in your camouflage and
slinky ways when you care to.  When you choose not to be the center of
attention, you simply disappear, mentally going into a little foxhole
and allowing yourself to be disguised by your colors.  This ability is
like pulling a cloak of invisibility over you, and you use it at will. 
This means that in a stressful situation, when others are looking to
find someone to take the blame, you pull your fox invisibility down and
simply observe, unemotionally, not attached to the outcome, but watching with
your alert eyes and mind, waiting until the right time to emerge.

Though you may seem invisible to others in these circumstances, you are in a
state of high alert, watching and seeing into others.  For you have
the ability to see and feel and know the emotional state and mental
intentions of those around you.  And you use this to decide whether to
shine out with charm and wit or to withdraw into invisibility.  The
combination of these two skills allows you to move easily in the world
of others, dealing with outer situations in whatever way your intuition
tells you, for you are the fox.

Intuition and Anticipation

Your intuition is your greatest ally in your life, for it is not only
attuned to what others are doing and thinking right now, but is an
intuition of anticipation. Your sharp intelligence combines with your
intense intuition to allow you to anticipate what is coming.  When you
feel good things coming, you preen your beauty and step out into the
light.  When you anticipate trouble, you slip down the foxhole and simply
go away, letting it stroll down the path and miss you completely.

Even though you are always in a state of high awareness, you are very
relaxed. Your trust in your intuition is such that you never worry. 
You know that you will be able to anticipate trouble and slip away. 
And when you find yourself in the circle of others, you know that your
clever ways and great charm and beauty will help you through.  You are
therefore utterly confident, relaxed and fearless, for you are the fox.

Devotion to Others
There is yet another life you enjoy and that is the life of your family.
(Kerilyn says ‘Friends are our Chosen Family’)
You are devoted to those you love and spend wonderful moments cuddled up
warmly in the circle of friends and family.  You are able to develop very close-knit
relationships that last for a lifetime.  Your deep confidence and love of
yourself allow you to be deeply compassionate and loving with others.  You are
not competitive or aggressive.  You are loving and caring, always a good helper
and teammate.  The friendships you form are deep and lasting and your family is
a great comfort.  You know that the petty annoyances of others are nothing
compared to this great bond and the love you share when you are tucked away in
your hidden home, away from the glare of the light and the intrusions of
outsiders, safe and warm and comforted in the center of your own clan.

The Ability to See New Patterns
You see patterns differently than others.  The world through your eyes is
like a network of interconnected things, all there for you to make sense
of.  What is a solid obstacle to others is a network of open opportunities
to you, like a bush that appears solid but is really just leaves and
branches that easily give way when you have the heart, courage and
creativity to just charge right in.

Your uncanny ability to build new pathways in difficult terrain keeps
your beauty intact as you travel, allowing you to emerge victorious
where others become scratched and bruised.  You emerge in your beauty
effortlessly as the world naturally gives way and opens up to you, for you are
the fox.

Resourceful and Clever Problem-Solver
This ability to see patterns missed by others and to discern openings
in the densest of circumstances makes you a consummate problem-solver. 

Your mind is faster than most, and you solve problems quickly and
decisively. Your mind is too quick to spend time in analysis and
pondering, in explanations and justifications.  You perceive and you
act.  Your cleverness and intuition work together seamlessly, for you
are the fox. (Ok..NOT me..Actually I’m the Opposite… sez Kerilyn)

You are deeply resourceful and endlessly clever.  There is no situation
that can get the better of you (um… Kerilyn says REALLY? HA!) , for you
are always able to find new ways out of difficult situations. 
(Again, Kerilyn says.. um… I don’t think so. Laughing!)
You are  never cornered and unable to act.  You never just still and fall into
despair.  Your alert mind and highly developed instincts always
help you find a little hole to scurry down or a new path to forge. 
You have a highly developed sense of the ways one might go,
the many solutions to any problem.  You are full of creativity and fun,
forging new pathways, opening new explorations and adventures,
quickly darting here and there and finding ways to leave
this and run to that.
(OK.. Kerilyn says..That paragraph doesn’t really apply to me..)

Your life is fun and exciting, full of creativity and newness, for you
are the fox.

How to Join with Fox Energy
Fox Invocation

I breathe in deeply and open myself to golden cleansing energy
I ask that it may flow through me, from head to toe,
Clearing me and preparing me for the vibrant energy of the fox

My mind is quiet and clear
I am open now to new ways of thinking

My heart opens wide and grows soft and warm
I am open now to new ways of loving

My center grows calm and deep
Like an endless pool of still water
I am open now to new ways of being
I am ready

I stand in the light of love
And invite fox energy to come to me now
To fill me and empower me
To transform my life through the great gifts of the fox

I feel the fox energy as it fills me
As I run joyfully through the underbrush, from burrow to bush,
I feel life becoming clear and making sense, like a puzzle I know
how to solve I fill with confidence in my own great beauty and charm
I feel my intuition growing sharper as I fill with a deep
connection with all that surrounds me
And my heart opens wide as I fill with gentle love
I know my power, the power of the fox

I am now one with fox energy
I will feel it and be it in every moment
For I am the fox

I am completely at ease in social situations
Fully confident of my charm and beauty
And that I will always know just how to act
And when I want to, I blend in invisibly
For I am the fox

My intuition is so strong and I am so closely attuned to others
That nothing ever takes me by surprise
For I am the fox

I give thanks for this gift, for this grace
And with each breath I take I now know
I am the fox
* * *

And now, you are one with the fox.  Let your self-consciousness and
worry disappear as you open to your own beauty and wonder, as you allow your
charm to develop.  Enjoy the cleverness of your quick mind as the world gives
way to you, both to your social presence and to your
endlessly creative solutions to problems that arise.  You are deeply
loved by your friends and family.  Your life is fun and joyful as you
enjoy the many gifts that are effortlessly yours.  You are the fox.

High/Low 4.10.09

Friday, April 10th, 2009

Morning my lovebugs…

How goes it? It goes pretty darn well in my world… (Can you tell that I’ve been SO happy lately? in general..?)  It’s Friday.. and Payday.. and I’m still feeling so darn good.. contented.. and secure.. EXACTLY where I am supposed to be… Ahh.. Good Feeling. I look out the window of my office.. onto the Potomac River.. watch the runners/walkers and doggies go by… I am so blessed to have the view that I do… It makes my job THAT much better I’ll tell ya.

This weekend is a loverly one… Hanging with my man tonite doing something (probably hanging outside with the wonderful neighbors in the new tent we all will be going in together on – grilling out) Tomorrow… My little sis is coming and she’s keeping me company while I do some errands.. including get my hair cut. Yes.. I need a new look.. My hair is getting long… (I know, I know Matthew) But the longer it gets.. the heavier it gets and well.. I have thin/fine hair and I need some help in the styling/body department. I am trying not to envision what she has for me.. I am NOT cuting my hair off at all.. just give it some more… ummph. Hanging with Sis … watching this AWESOME movie that my Auntie sent me called You Can Heal Your Life which I HIGHLY suggest… (Thank You Auntie!!!)  Then Resting… little more of  “BEING” Saturday.. then Sunday Is Easter.. Another Busy day at the restaurant for my Honeydew.. and I’m scheduled to Volunteer at my beloved National Building Museum then All the Neighbors (Hopefully Mahoney and Allison too!) is going to have an Easter Dinner Shin Dig outside (Fingers Crossed the Weather is nice!)

Ok.. I feel like saying something funny that happened to me yesterday.. then I’ll do 3 things 2 things

1. Something funny: Yesterday I was running in the little gym in my bldg.. and I noticed the oscillating fan was pointed toward the ground… NOT doing me or my other gym buddy any justice.. so I thought I’d keep the treadmill going.. and push the fan up to useless height… Well I was so focused on NOT hitting the moving treadmill..watching it moving… that once I stepped off the treadmill.. I guess I got caught up with the movement and kept stepping backward.. TOTALLY hitting the machine behind me… and HEAD OVER HEELS (actually the opposite) fell over… I rebounded pretty fast.. got up (due to embarrassment) and put my hands in the air like I just made a touchdown… Thankfully only my gym buddy was in there.. Ha!! I kept and keep replaying it.. and bust out laughing… And I have one heck of a bruise on my thigh from hitting the machine behind me.! Ok.. check that off the list of things that I’ve never done before…. Look like a fool in the gym! CHECK!!!

3 things that make me happy:

  1. Every evening…. I fill a small juice glass up with Kefir.. It’s PRO-biotics.. that taste and look exactly like a Strawberry Smoothie. It’s good for the digestive system.. especially after taking AntiBiotics. It tastes so good… It’s like having a smoothie every nite! YUM!
  2. Listening to Bombay Dub Orchestra here at my desk.. There are a few songs that really make me feel relaxed.. It’s a Group with a 36 Piece Indian Orchestra.. VERY CHILL!!! LOVE LISTENING TO THEM!!!! Deep Breath In…..Ohm…..
  3. Getting a call from my mom yesterday saying that she received the picture of Peter and I that I sent her (courtesy of Alicia.. thank you) in lieu of an Easter Card!

2 things I look forward to today:

  1. I am leaving here at 3pm today.. going to run then going to grocery for our hopeful cookout tonite!) Getting the LONG weekend started a little early!! YIPPEE!!!
  2. Just Being able to enjoy my afternoon… Peter will come home and we can spend the evening together… or with good friends.  Both will be very enjoyable!!!

2 long term things i look forward to:

  1. I signed up today for my first 5K!!! Race for the Cure on Saturday June 6th!! My fellow co-worker/runner Bob told me about this Race so when Kristy and I were talking about finding a Race.. I thought it would be a perfect first race.. So inspiring and 30,000 runners/walkers! I’ll admit.. I’m a little nervous… Been stuck at 2.5 miles for a while now.. And haven’t run outside yet.. But I know it will be wonderful! Thanks to Kristy for the gentle and loving nudge to do it… We are running together (unless anyone else wants to run with us.. let me know!)
  2. Getting out of Dodge for Memorial Day and visiting Michelle in Charleston! I really am excited about getting away… and relaxing..eating yummy food.. (After Memorial Day I’m going on a 10 day cleanse.. then Starting the No Grain Eating again until the wedding)
  3. Monday I am OFF And Peter and I are going to the Washington Nationals Opening Day Game!!! WOO HOO!!! SO FUN!!! Peter (of course) knows someone.. and we were invited by the VP of Merchandising for the Nationals to go in his Box and watch the Game!! Wowee!!! I cant’ wait!!! Hopefully I can run into my favorite Sales Person Bob from here.. at the Stadium… and enjoy a beer with Him. I really love going to Baseball Games..  Beer, Sausage and Peppers (Yea don’t remind me.. I know they’re not good for me… I gotta enjoy my life!) and singing the National Anthem.. It’s what being an American is all about!!!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:

ME! I love myself.. I can honestly say that I have been the happiest I’ve been in a LONG LONG time!! Does that mean things are perfect? No. Perfect doesn’t exist. Does it mean I’m still not working things out in my head? Again No.. I’m always Churning Churning in this head o’mine!  It’s the challenge of trying to learn more about myself that keeps me from Giving Up!!! Paired with my lovely affirmations, my wonderful Kitty Girl that I love to mush on and breathe in.. wonderful neighbors… cute shoes.. beautiful Trees I drive by on the way to work… and exercising.. and a man who I love very much and cannot wait to start the next chapter with… I am one Lucky Woman!!!

Happy Easter Everyone!!!
Much Love!!!
Kerilyn

High/Low 3.12.09

Thursday, March 12th, 2009

Hiety Ho my lovely lady and gentlemen bugs!

Ok.. well now that I have this gift.. the gift to be able to write you all when I want to.. on my own turf… I feel I must make use of this wonderful tool and blessing..

So… What’s up?

What’s up for me is that I have been home the past few days with a head that feels like someone poured concrete in through every oriface..making just doing my normal happy self things.. a bit less happy… So much to my chagrin I went to the Drs on Tuesday and it appears.. my human body ailment is… Chronic Sinusitus. But.. I believe that our physical bodys ‘dis-ease’ is the lack of an emotional and mental body AT ease.. so I saught out my wonderful Auntie to help me find the answer to my quandry….

And… my Auntie informs me that the reason for the sniff sniff cough cough aaaahhchooo! (THREE times now have I been down for the count with this dreaded concrete head!! Once every THREE months! Dang it!) is because I’m letting myself be irritated by someone close to me. And dang it if that isn’t true!!! Silly Kerilyn… constantly churning churning in my silly head.. curiosities.. and waves of intense anger… overcome me on a (dare I admit) daily basis… So.. the confirmation of why my physical body is saying to me  ”Yo sista… maybe if you stop irritating me with these fruitless thoughts… our head wouldn’t get all clogged up!” And I say to my physical person… I HEAR YOU GIRL!!!!

So I am on day two of my defragmenting my brain of unnecessary and unhelpful obsessive thoughts… that NO longer serve me. And I am proud of myself.. getting through day one! Yippee!!!! (oh… do you not know me well enough to know that I am thinking ALL OF THE TIME? What if this?  How can I…? What if that? How is he…? What is he/she thinking….? Boy I am so grateful for…..” It goes on and on and on…  Peter says that that is the reason why I do not remember my dreams.. because it’s the only time I have peace in my head. I have to agree with him.

Also what is up with me is…. I just sold one of my loverly Benchmark Greeting Cards on Etsy today! Yippity Skippity!!!! I am so happy to know that my card is one that my buyer has been looking for…that makes me happy in my soul. I am feeling this is an upward trend in my life.. “Order of “That dream of yours” card.. PICK IT UP! DING!

(can you tell i’m in a good mood? I think it’s all the concrete in my head.. i can’t overthink stuff right now because of the concrete.. so I have to get it our or I’ll BURST!)

Let’s see…. what else is up? Hmm.. Because of the concrete.. I have not run this week.. which bums me out EXTREMELY. I like to run and feel so proud of myself afterward.. a little touch of sexy and a smidge of “I think I can see myself getting thinner” on a daily basis so the fact that I have to go straight home..listen to Peters cat Bella cry and cry (DONT get me started!!!!) put on my pj’s and catch up on the rest of my Tivo Shows.. well.. it ain’t that bad but still.. I would much rather do all that AFTER I sweated and stuff.. (Maybe I need to start listening to music when I run so I can continue my goal of purging my obsessive and unhealthy thoughts.. HMMM????  I did just find a few awesome songs (thanks to wonderful Sirius Satellite Radio) that I uploaded on Itunes… that I can (and have) danced my butt off too in my bedroom.

Wow.. I’m really rambling aren’t i?

Oh well… I’m happy. I’m happy I can see the forest through the trees. I have wonderful friends, a wonderful man who is going to graciously bring me home dinner (Lobster Bisque – YUM!) that I get to kiss and laugh with which we do OFTEN!

OH!!!!! Let me NOT forget to tell you… I received in the mail today…

My BEAUTIFUL Camera Strap from the wonderful Em Falconbridge that I CANNOT wait to put on my camera tonite!!!! I’m almost doing a happy dance (sans the concrete in my head) to be able to show off my strap tonite! Wahoo!

Ok.. Okay.. I’m going to stop rambling now…. (but I like to ramble… don’t you know that about me?)
Nighty Nite.
Much Love.
Don’t let the bedbugs bite.
Kerilyn ‘thisdreamergirl’ Fox