Receiving my award
Thanks to my girl Kyra who passed along The Happy Award to me.. I am flattered she gave this to me. I will admit being happy hasn’t been so free flowing lately. The job has been really challenging and I have been consumed with trying to understand the way it works. (in reality it’s realizing just how much it’s not working) But gratefully the end of this past week – We started to see a shift, toward teamwork and the extreme need for process… I left Friday actually feeling happy. So I think that’s why I am able to now write.
So here we go; 10 things that make me happy:
- Waking up on Sundays when Peter is off, and we have no plans. Coffee – Sunday Morning Edition. Love it.
- Waking up on a school day and my husband is laying next to me and my Pez girl is laying between my feet. My family.
- Getting my nails done – wearing my favorite color nail polish called “Friar Friar, Pants on Fire”
- Zinnias and Ranunculus Flowers – having them in my space when I walk by
- Thinking of all the wonderful possibilities of where I might be come this December.
- Lobster Bisque soup at Carsyle
- Peters Chili and Split Pea soup – YUM!
- Going to sleep with new sheets on the bed
- Getting a package or letter in the mail from someone I know!
- Although I know I am not perfect (never will be) – being really proud of myself that I am always wanting to learn about myself and how I interact with others and the world.
Awesome – I can go on… that makes me happy.
My sister came over this morning; we had a good heart to heart today. I am proud of her. She drove away and I felt like she really is taking stock and trying to look at the scary parts inside. I wanted to say to her – I see it. and I’m proud of what I see. Keep it up Kristine! I believe in you!!!
Wow… Life has been kinda amazing lately. Everyone around me is growing… changing.. transforming.. And what I see feels so good. Having Babies… working on their businesses… facing their fears… making future plans. It truly feels like change is going on all around me. Feels like everyone is feeling the same way I am. That this year is about change… evolution. I am really grateful to sit by and watch my loved ones transform before my eyes. I am in awe and thankful for the opportunity to be a part. Wow. It’s blowing my mind.
Things are changing for me too. I am on the cusp of something totally different. I am married – I am totally in love with Peter… more now than ever. We look at each other and really are excited about where we are. I can only speak for myself… but I feel the best I have in my entire life. It’s not an outer happiness… but more an inner one. I feel I’m not seeking the same outward approval from friends and family that I might have in the past. Peter and I are just in this little bubble of time and space together. Loving being with each other.. being in love… and at the same time.. loving our individual identities which brings us balance. He is not a planner and I am not spontaneous. He helps me and I help him. A team. I will not lie – not having a job put added stress on us but at the same time it made us really focus on each other.. not on what we could give each other materially to make us happy. Now that we are getting back on track financially – we are beginning to talk about our plans… to start our family… to relocate to someplace and put down roots… me and my dream to become a Life Coach and launch my Idea. This job – my job – is a starting point. The way in which our plans will happen. It is no longer an avenue for my life.. just the path to my destination. I feel really good about where we are. I’m proud of myself. and Excited for Peter and I… to see what takes shape in the next 12 months.
(*But I will say – I am SO GRATEFUL that I work with 6 other people from my previous job – How many people have that opportunity? Not many. I feel like although I lost the job I loved; I had a chance to really evaluate what it was that made me happy with it… and now that i see what ‘it’ really is… (just a job) I go back to it with some of the same players. What a miracle that is.)
Monday Morning – SO excited to go to work – my first official day with my shorter hair cut. Like this transition most of us are in – cutting my hair was a symbolic liberation of the past 3 years of experiences. It feels so good – I am excited to do it and to see myself differently! 
This weekends weather – especially Sunday – was beautiful. Not having to bundle up in my usual coat and scarf… to feel less constricted. I love it and am almost giddy to experience spring!
Alright – Off into the wild blue yonder today. Have a great day!
Much Love -
Kerilyn
