Hi everybody -

I need your help. I was sitting here on the couch a few minutes ago – watching last weeks  Episode of Private Practice – thinking about HOW I’m going to get thru tomorrow (Work is getting REALLY crazy busy – and I am the only official designer and too many projects with insane deadlines to do – and EVERYONE is looking at me for an answer – I predict that tomorrow I’m going to have every single person at my job ask  me for direction. It’s exactly the kind of thing that makes me PANIC. I’m sitting here trying my best to focus on the long term goal ($$$ and Moving and starting family and etc…) but I’m sorta stuck in feeling panicky about the short term. I do NOT know how to come up with the solution for the fact that I am only ONE person. It’s freaking me out.  I’ve been  stressed out – and snappy with Peter – and unable to really relax – ever since I started this job – then it hit me… I need to ask you for help.

Ugh – I need you. I don’t know how I’m going to get thru this. (No.. I’m NOT at the end of my rope – I just have never had to seek solutions for so many people – with so much information – clients depending on us to get this done. I won’t lie that I kinda feel like I don’t have the skills to manage. I do feel overwhelmed.

I feel like I can’t really be able to receive help without telling you what I need. I need some sort of Big Picture focus.. like a mantra to get me thru this challenge.

That’s what this is – a challenge. Maybe it’s a challenge because it’s teaching me to see what it takes to really manage. When I am the spokesperson for Married to a Chef and I perhaps will need to be directing other people… I have a feeling I might need to know what I’m starting to learn now. Management.

Does this new experience make me nervous? Yes. It pushes on my fears. Big time.

But there is a part of me that knows that I’m learning something…

That’s why I’m reaching out.

Do any of you have management or any sort of advice I can use to get thru tomorrow.
I’d really appreciate it.
Thanks guys.
Kerilyn

PS: GREAT GREAT GREAT OVER THE MOON NEWS!!!! My girlfriend since I was 17 years old – Kyra – she and her boyfriend Dave welcomed a little girl into their family today! YAY Kyra!!! It definitely blows my mind. When I heard from Dave today – tears flowed from my eyes – I’m sad I am not close to see how Beautiful Kyra looks.. to meet their little girl (Her name is Indira Skye which I think is a BEAUTIFUL name!!) Even now thinking about my good friend… holding her daughter – makes me get choked up a bit. Sniff.