Okay Listen up….

i’ve come to a conclusion today… I am boring.. Yes. Me. Kerilyn…. I am boring, scared, and most of all…  lazy.

this conclusion had been formulated when I think of ALL the things I could be doing with my day… instead of worrying!!!

See here it is… There is…

SO MUCH

Out there to be inspired by.. SO much to do… to see. That I CANNOT.. for the LIFE of me wonder why I am complaining and complaining.. Waah Waah Waah about me losing my job..

Uh.. HELLO!!! It’s not everyday that one is given the gift of FREETIME and able bodied enough to go out.. and LIVE!!!

Oh my gosh.. Okay I have  been volunteering at the National Building Museum… as you know… there are ALL these wonderful.. Dive into these amazingly creative shelves of books there.. which just makes me want to go to a bookstore and read and read and read until they know my name there and they reserve one of those extremely used lounge chairs that is always tucked away in a corner.  Then my imagination travels down the wormhole to me reading books on knitting and starting your own business and how to grow ranunculus flowers in pots.. and then I think of all the AMAZING BLOGS that are out there.. these amazing women (and men) who bravely share their lives.. the vulnerablities.. THEIR ART AND INSPIRATION with us on a DAILY basis and I am sitting here worried!!!

oh my gosh…. Seriously I think I am ashamed of myself.

Okay so… Starting tomorrow.. I will do ONE THING every day that I have never done before… Even if it’s really small… and I will tell you because It’s about living an INSPIRED LIFE!!!! And I have been WASTING IT!!! Oh my gosh.. I kinda feel like I have SO much catching up to do…

Just for starters.. a few things i want to do:

** Oh and Side Note.. these are also things that make me face my fears… so not all of them will be seen as entertainment… but more of a soul searching exercise into my Spirit…

1. Sit with someone in a Nursing Home and Read to them.
2. RE-LEARN to Knit…
3. Cook a NICE dinner for myself Every Nite (that is affordable)
4. Really begin a Night Face Washing Routine
5. Have my bike fixed and buy a Basket to put my camera in and go for bike rides!
6. DO A NEW BENCHMARK CARD!!!
7. Make Homemade Soup from Scratch (and surprise Peter)
8. Be a Part of a Bake Sale
9. Organize my Closet/Desk Area.. make it even more.. ME!
10. Read a Book from beginning to End.. in one sitting!!! (Ugh Stargirl II!!!)
11. Learn how to play Spades!!!!
12. Do my hair and Makeup EVERY DAY even on the days I don’t volunteer and even though I know I will eventually put my hair in a ponytail and I will sweat from exercising.
13. Collage..* this is a big one… I LOVE collage!!!!

Those are just a few.. I have NO NO NO excuse to sit around and be miserable!!! NONE!!!! I am telling you…

I have also decided.. Thursday Morning I will rise early and go out to my parents house where they have graciously let me keep my belongings that I do not need in my everyday life/can’t fit in this house… and will go find these awesome inspiring books that I love.. “I will not die an unlived life” and.. “When the Buddha got stuck” and I will re-read them!!!

SO MUCH TO BE INSPIRED BY!!! Now I gotta go out and take full advantage of it!!!!

Side Note: There are so many blogs out there that are so awesome.. I can (and do) get lost in the amazing inspiring authors out there that just help to fuel my passion.. my desire to live a unique and genuine life.. that I just want to say a big THANK YOU for helping to inspire me.. and how I wish I could expand more.. with my High/Low…. I wonder how other bloggers have gotten to have  a following of silent readers.. and those that energetically give them a virtual “alleyoop!” that helps propel them forward. If you have any ideas on how to do this.. please let me know.

Thanks for being there… my friends.. my family.
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Howdy ya’ll….

okay so it’s been a month since all this hullabaloo started with my jobby job.. so this will officially be my 3rd week not working.. and you know what .. I think I’m finally feeling better, if not good with it.  I’ve gone thru so many different emotions… up and down… not feeling social… not wanting to be around too many people.. last Monday was the shift.. Peter and I had a ‘Come to Jesus’ talk and two things were clear.. I need to NOT look at the whole big picture as it’s just too overwhelming.. spending LOTS of money on this wedding.. and what I’m going to do next… I need to break it up into little pieces then It doesn’t seem so overwhelming…etc… then theres the I need to stay busy side… I am a Type A person.. I have a hard time resting.. too much of nothing to do makes me revert back to looking at the big picture.. and I need to avoid that.. So thankfully I started Volunteering at the National Building Museum Gift Shop.  Last nite I was getting ready to go to bed.. and it hit me that I missed my job… Missed everyone.. and looking out onto the Potomac River.. sitting in my awesome station… Surrounded by all my positive things… I miss my job. Does that sound crazy? I have gone around and around in my head about what I want to do.. I have no answer for that.  I really don’t know. It’s like my heart is broken. That’s how this feels anyway. Still trying to grapple with the emotions of it all.

Today I am up earlier than usual… going into DC today for a haircut at my favorite place. Aveda! Then I might go to the flower farm where you can cut flowers.. I am excited to bring my camera and take pics of the beautiful flowers. Then to Yoga with my wonderful teacher Jill.

Random Thought: I love the movie The Darjeeling Limited – The colors, the awesome quick editing.. the acting rocks, India… Love it.  If you haven’t seen it and like independent movies… definitely check it out.

Tomorrow I have an appointment to have my dress altered.. Kristine is going to come and be with me.. I wub her. My sparkly girlfriend Roxanne is coming too..

Another Random Thought.. a wonderful friend of mine Crocheted a Red Blanket for Peter and I as a wedding gift. SO AWESOME!!!! Thank You!

Okay… must dash off… Have a great day. Talk soon.
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Hiety Ho..

It’s little ‘ol me.. How ya’ll doin? It’s Tuesday Night… as you will see shortly.. I did a Video… But what I didn’t say is….

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEETCHEEKS!!!

Yes in just 30 minutes.. it will be my beautiful Michelles Birthday (I get to call her sweetcheeks!) and I wish you a wonderful wonderful Birthday Honey!!! I’ll be thinking of you.. Hope you do something fun!

Also.. we sent out the invites last week.. and we’re starting to get the RSVP’s in! SO exciting.. since i’m home both Peter and I jump up when we hear the mail being pushed through the door… A HA! And People.. Put your favorite Dance Song on there!!! Come ON.. work with me here!!!)

Just so you all know.. I’m doing okay. It’s been pretty much up and down in Kerilyns world.. But today.. I had a good day. (Refer to Video)  Let’s just focus on that I had a good day today eh? Good Idea.

I’m working on the gifts for my people.. and my parentals… I know they all are going to LOVE them!!!

Have a few more things to take care of… and sometime this month we need to get our Marriage License then it will REALLY be Real!!!

I think I feel like doing 3 things 2 things:

3 things that make me happy:

1. OOH.. I think I found my dress for the Rehearsal Dinner and I have to say I think it’s SO me! Thanks K for sharing the website for the awesome Dresses!!! You know all the awesome sites!
2. Sunday I heard what I want to be our First Dance Song… I think I’m actually going to keep it Off this blog.. and if you’re coming it will be a surprise. (I will TRY to keep this secret.. no guarantees people)
3. I saw some awesome pics that my girlfriend K took on our weekend in Roanoke. (Girl.. I wish that there was more to do in Boring Roanoke.. Blah)

2 things I look(ed) forward to today:

1. Well since it’s 11:40pm I figure I should write what I looked forward to.. and Number 1 is this AWESOME AWESOME Strawberry Smoothie with Protein that I get at the Smoothie Bar at the Gym. Oh my gosh this smoothie is heaven and I treat myself from time to time.. (once every 2 weeks or so when I used to go to this gym more regularly) Oh my YUM!
2. I had SUCH a good time hanging out with my girlfriend Kim! We went to grab some FREE grub.. then walked around Old Town.. I was feeling good and we were being funny and we were laughing so hard!!! Awesome Time.. I needed that.

2 long term things I look forward to:

1. Okay.. I am getting excited for whatever my sister has planned for me over Labor Day weekend. I have NO idea what it is.. but the excitement is BUILDING!!!
2. This Saturday My Dad and I are going to the Legg Mason Tennis Tournament in DC. (Ha.. I bought these tickets months ago.. before I lost my job!) I’m looking forward to spending some QT time with my dad.

1 person I am going to appreciate:

Oh my.. WITHOUT A DOUBT… Peter. I have been SUCH a bear lately.. Snappy and Mean.. Crying one minute.. staring out into space like someone in a coma.. the next. I’ve been antsy.. and not calm.. And he STILL finds it somewhere inside him to love me.. Despite all that. I love him.. so much. He loves me when the chips are down.. and I still find myself amazed. I love his laugh.. and his silly ways of trying (not always with much success) to make me smile.. and laugh. We have had our share of stressors lately.. which has tested both our limits.. we express our feelings VERY differently… but the love is still there.. I told him today that I am SO excited to become Mrs. Kerilyn Russo.. and I mean EVERY WORD…   Trying on that Wedding ring Yesterday… I am so proud to soon be Peters Wife.

Okay.. enough Rambling.. Here is the Video…

Wednesday Ramble 08.05.09 from Kerilyn Fox on Vimeo.

Have a Good Nite.. and a Great Wednesday!
Much Love,
Kerilyn