Hi there my peeps…

How are ya? Well… it’s been a roller coaster of emotion the past few days to say the least…Don’t want to focus on it.. but it has to do with work and finances.. I’ve been feeling ALL sorts of all over the place… (plus traveling to and fro NJ in a very short period of time threw me off too) I am one that needs regular alone time.. I lived alone for 6 years and loved it… and well… I go thru times when I just need to sit still… I’m not a big TV watcher… but I enjoy regular moments of solitude.. I haven’t had time by myself in a while till last nite and so it was nice.. I watched a movie (Movie New in Town.. it was alright) my little Pez girl sat on my lap and purred for an hour or so… and I just vegged out.. went to bed later than usual… I went to bed feeling like I wished I had a RESTART button to snap me back on the path of Sparkles and Yee haw which is where I like to be… Watched this awesome Video last nite with Bob Proctor (Thank You my wonderful Auntie) (Bob Proctor is one of the men in The Secret – Which, if you have not seen yet.. GO.. RUN and get it!!!) and I was listening to what he said.. but I wasn’t sure it was seeping in.. I wanted it to… I woke up this morning.. still feeling the residue of last nites ickyness…. but like running every day.. I go thru this moment when I’m like.. “Do I really want to run today?” And I think of all these excuses to not run..and then I tell myself SHUT UP! You’re going to feel SO much better afterward.. and you know what? I do.

Sun is shining.. I’m saying SHUT UP Kerilyn! Start being positive! You’ll feel better! Trying to focus on the flower I cut and put in a little vase in the bathroom when I’m doing my eye makeup… then I was told of the status of someone in my past’s misfortune that, if God/Karma/Life hadn’t of changed.. would’ve been my everyday life. And man.. that was the kick in the butt I needed.  Wow.. here I am.. getting ready to be married.. Running Every Day.. at a job that, while it’s in a state of instability.. I still go to and look out the window at the beautiful Potomac River.. and I am going to the Reggae Festival 2009 this Sunday to listen to one of my FAVORITE performers, Beres Hammond !!! Woo Hoo! I am so blessed. I got a call yesterday… my dress is in! And I am going tonite to look at the first run of our invitations! I got news of  my friends Liz and Matthews made their flight arrangements to come in for the wedding..  and I have a man who I love very much who supports me in whatever I need.. and I wonder.. WHAT THE HECK AM I FEELING BLUE ABOUT?? HUH???

oh my… so miraculously.. I feel good (coincidentally Beres Hammond sings a song I LOVE called I feel good which will definitely be playing at the Reception) no.. I feel GREAT! As Tony the Tiger says….

So.. I go into my day feeling .. no.. KNOWING I am blessed. I can run and walk and sing and see and hear this morning… I feel valued at my job.. and know that when I go to bed at nite.. that ALL is as it should be…

Wow… Bob Proctor said that in the Book Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill that it takes JUST as much energy to be positive as it does to be negative…. I thought of that… Why I am CHOOSING to focus on all the ickyness.. when it takes JUST as much energy to feel ALIVE and grateful for all I DO have…!!!

So yea… Thank You to everyone for being there for me.. for your Facebook Comments..your texts and words of concern… I am very thankful you are in my life.. I am grateful I want for nothing.

So I dance into my day… tuning into Channel 84 on my Sirius Radio (The Joint – Reggae Channel) and say I wish you to focus on the good today… cause if you look.. there is a LOT of it going on!

Much Love,
Kerilyn