So how can I share with you all how my life has realy been the manifestation of a dream. No Really it has. It seems that with Every Day.. Every Week… I am settling into my life.. Enjoying it (Okay I still have my moments) and really appreciating all the love that surrounds me. It starts when I wake up in the morning to my love and my kitty girl in the bed with me… then to my delicious cup of coffee that I enjoy in the morning…. I haven’t been meditating every morning,  for about six months.. Not sure quite why.. I have been sleeping in more.. I think I need the extra sleep. At first I was really beating myself up that I wasn’t meditating.. since I had been doing it for almost 8 years.. but I just settled in my mind that I’m passing from one phase into another like the perverbial Caterpillar into a Butterfly. I feel like I’ve been transitioning into what I am seeing today when I look in the mirror.. and well.. I need some extra rest.  I am not dismayed.. I know God still loves me.. I know my Spirit people are still there too… I know that I can still ‘tune in’ when i’m running or well.. now that I have started this amazing journey with Jivamukti Yoga (more on that in a bit). I go to a job that I really enjoy.. I work with people that I really enjoy and I look to the left at my desk and I am looking at this wide expanse of River before me.. watching the boats and the rowers go by.. watch the Rain Storms come in.. and the clouds change.. at the people who are running or walking their dogs on the trail… I’m telling you.. this is one FINE 9-5 job AND.. I am financially in a place where Saving is my only goal. I then go from my job.. to exercising which makes me feel alive.. and more in tune with myself and my body. Then back home to my little kitty girl.. and if Peters off or opening that day.. home to my love where we’ll either sit outside with our lovely neighbors.. or sit and watch a movie together.. snuggled on the couch.

This is my life.  Not just as it isn’t sunny every day.. I have my moments of cloudyness.. rain.. and blah. That hasn’t changed for years… It comes in.. it goes out.. But you want to know what’s different? I can SEE it now.. I can see it come in and pass with greater clarity. I’m saying that yes, sometimes I can still be a bear.. or yes, I still can get frustrated with what’s in front of me.. but my eyes are taking everything in… my soul opens up.. and I am more thankful now for all that I have.. all that has transpired in this past year.. than I EVER have been. I have some AMAZING friendships/connections with my lovelies .. deep and steadfast.. no matter what the weather.. that makes me feel SO blessed. My beloved family… feeling a sense of shedding old fears/resentments to allow healthy and fresh love in…  something I feel so strongly that I want to do… NEED to do… before I get married. And let’s not forget that this dreamer girl… will, if all goes as we Visualize it to.. will at some point have a little miracle growing inside me.. Wow.. just saying that kinda takes my breath away.. kinda makes me want to cry… I have never talked about this more than I have in the past 6-8 months of my life. And it’s getting more comfortable talking about… I still feel unknowing.. with regard to the How To’s.. but my heart, I feel, is opening and preparing itself for this next chapter… I’ve always been a mushy person.. and I have a feeling that being a parent is going to open me up beyond recognition. With my faith… after the wedding.. I will be meditating on the spirit of the little one charted to be our child. Okay enough for now. Deep Breath in…

Memorial Day Weekend I departed into the Big Blue Sky to fly down to Charleston, SC to be with one of my best friends, Michelle for a few days. I won’t go into the whole weekend but I will say that that weekend was one of the best few days of my entire life. It was the whole package for me…REALLY Good Food and Drink, Taking in the beautiful town that is Charleston, little shops to go into and look around, family (hers) which is so familiar to me, LOTS of amazing “Swimming in the Deep End” talks with Michelle that seemed to just ebb and flow from subject to subject without much trouble.. Really going deep.. sitting outside with a glass of wine and a smoke or two (yea yea.. Enjoy it like a fine wine I do)  Just being us… and well… without minimizing it.. a Reconnection to my faith which is SO important to who I am.. wow. Michelle and another Soul mate of hers, Marty.. took me to a Jivamukti Yoga class.. which honestly I can say changed my perception of my life.. and my love of God and the Universe and mostly.. of MYSELF.. for I am part of God. I have come away from this weekend Loving myself more.. Wow again. I put that weekend on a very soft ,but very sturdy shelf where I can look at it always as something to cherish for the rest of my life. Here… check out the pictures from that weekend!

And well.. then there’s Peter. It is beyond words yet again.. to explain that we are still… even months after being engaged.. falling more in love with each other every day. It’s almost like… every day.. we become more beautiful and more beautiful to each other. I know there are times when Peter looks at me and he is overwhelmed at the feelings he’s feeling for me.. and feel the EXACT Same.  We have been having regular moments when we look at each other and say.. “We are going to be married!” Holy Moly I am so excited.. let me tell you.. to be Mrs. Kerilyn Russo. There is so much love there…Wow.

I am becoming a Monarch Butterfly folks.. One Big (Tall) Beautiful, Colorful and Gracious Butterfly. Floating High above the trees… taking in all the beauty that is this world. And I am so dang proud of myself!!!!

I can go on and on.. but I’m going to end here for now… I send you much Love… Much.. Much Love.
Thank You for helping me be who I see in the mirror.
Your Butterfly girl,
Kerilyn

PS: I had to share this.. I went for a run outside today… SO beautiful out… two things I LOVED about my run today:

1. The GLORIOUS Smell of Honeysuckle that filled the air.. oh my.. it was AMAZING!!!
2. When the bikers would pass me from behind.. they would ring their bell that sounded like a Tibetan bell, resonating in my ears.. It made me smile every time I heard it.