Hi Everyone!!

How are you doing? I’ve been feeling thirsty for writing you all… Craving a nice long Rambling to you.. Hope you don’t mind. Have lots of things swimming around in this head of mine that I need to get out.

I’m doing Fabulous! I feel great today… I’m almost giddy… moments of intense internal high energy… bursting at the seams! SO many exciting things coming in my life, I can barely contain it all! I think I’m almost not believing that it’s a smidge over FOUR MONTHS till Peter and I get married!  Holy Moly!!! It’s kinda blowing my mind! All these fun events like Food Tastings at the Hotel and meeting the Music Coordinator is being scheduled.. and it’s getting closer to work with our Wedding Coordinator, Chantal. My girlfriend Kyra is working on the invites.. and then a wonderful former co-worker of Peters.. Erin of Haute Papier is helping us with the Printing! My sister is working now on the Programs to give to Kyra so she can do her artistic thang and It’s so exciting!!! Just to vent and get this off my chest… I think all we have to do is.

1. Rings
2. Flowers – Going to a local Farm with my friends Scott and Roxanne who are going to be helping with this part.
3. Place Cards
4. Hotel Welcome Bags
5. Veil/Shoes
6. Favors
7. Gifts for our Wedding Party

I think that’s it.. and as far as I’m concerned the stuff above is the fun stuff. Anything I’m forgetting? Besides forking over thousands of dollars? HA HA HA!!!  Well Regardless of that.. I am so excited!! Talking to my friends the past few days about their plans to come into town.. has me all excited inside. Seeing some friends that I haven’t seen in FOREVER has me very excited!!! Truth be told I regularly visualize/daydream while driving to and from work of dancing with all my friends at the reception and laughing and crying the entire way. I’m so dang lucky. Wow.

*oh and Peter and I still need to plan the rest of our Honeymoon to Italy*

So I’ve transitioned into regular eating after doing my 10 day cleanse.  I think I lost about 10-12 lbs. It’s definitely noticable. I was down in DC yesterday on a job site and I caught my reflection.. usually I pick myself apart in that brief moment but this time I stopped and actually said out loud.. “Damn I’m HOT.” It’s amazing how feeling more comfortable in your own body can totally change your outlook on every aspect of your life. I still have not had coffee and have no desire to eat meat since coming off the cleanse. I plan on doing this cleanse again the 8-20th of September, right before the wedding. I felt great.. VERY clear headed.. and well.. losing another 10 lbs wouldn’t hurt. My wedding dress at this point has to be taken in 3 dress sizes (they always make you order it BIGGER than you really are.. why do they do that? to make you pay for alterations) And I have 4 months to hopefully go down another dress size!

Let’s see.. what else.. I guess the only thing irking me lately is that I’ve been a bit uninspired at work. It’s been kinda slow.. with smaller projects lately and I feel like I need a BIG 500 station job to really keep my attention right now. I really do love what I do.. and I really would love an opportunity to continue the feeling of appreciation I have for what I do.  Staying hopeful something yummy comes my way!

Guess I really need to be honest with myself.. I feel really slack about my Benchmark cards.. it’s been a LONG time since I’ve been enthused about putting my energy in them. Sitting down and working on them. Do I love them still? Oh yes. But I can’t necessarily understand why my drive isn’t there to make more.. and make different.. dedicate my time in the evenings to my inspiration and passion. Interesting… It’s not because I don’t have the time.. because I do. Strange.

What else is going on in this head o’ mine?

I’m REALLY excited to be going down to Charleston next week for a long weekend with my girl Michelle over Memorial Day. I am SO excited to just ‘be’ with her. I need this badly. I need her badly. I need Charleston Badly. When I’m with Michelle I can be myself.. my “Swimming in the Deep End” Self and I never feel like what I am saying is too much for her to handle. On the contrary.. she swims right along with me… This might sound strange.. but part of me aches for her? Side note that I know that I’ve been lately twinging with some unsurfaced feelings about ending my friendship with Naomi back in January who also Swam in the Deep end.. I think I miss that constant exercise of introspection and reflection in my Daily Life.  Michelle and I have lots of fun things on the itinerary.. with one being POSSIBLY getting Tattoos.. I would LOVE a few more pieces of ink and I could think of noone else I’d rather go with.

I think I can go on and on today.. but You probably have other stuff to do.. laundry… dishes.. cook dinner.. so I’ll leave you with my favorite
3 things 2 things  and bid you adieu for now.

3 things that make me happy:

Kerilyn Today!!!

1. Wearing this dress today that used to fit me kinda snuggly but today it’s almost too big on me.. It still looks okay.. but I can definitely feel a difference. Yea! (Here’s a small pic.. you can’t see all of me but you’re going to have to trust me)
2. Looking out the window every morning at the River where I sit and work. So Tranquil.
3. In the morning, my kitty girl Pez stands on my bed and stares at me.. like as if to say “Wake Up Mom!” I love that.. she purrs away. She’s so happy now! I can totally tell a difference!

2 things I am looking forward to today:

1. I have therapy tonite at 7. I haven’t seen her in about a month so it will be nice to talk to her tonite.
2.  Giving running outside another try, yesterday was my first attempt (Had been running inside on the treadmill all this time) and yesterday didn’t go so well. Hopefully today is better (That is… if it doesn’t rain. It’s looking kinda yucky out there right now.

2 long term things I am looking forward to:

1. Well Getting out of town.. Packing a Bag and being free of my Everyday Life for a few days next weekend.
2. In July.. my Girl Kyra and I are going to meet halfway between here and Asheville and we’re going to have our own girls weekend in Roanoke, VA. It’s about a 3.5 Hour trip each way… but it’ll be good to just spend time with my K.

1 person I am going to appreciate:
My sister.. She has done so much for me these past months… I really don’t know what I would do without her. She thinks of things I would never have thought of.. and is so willing to help me.. and spend time with me.. even if I’m not having a happy moment. Love you Kristine!

That’s it for now.. Figure I rambled on enough…
Much Love,
Kerilyn