Hi there.

How are you? Monday. Good weekend for the most part. Had an AWESOME facial on Saturday.. my skin still looks good. I already made another appointment for June. Hung out with Kristy a while.. then went home and hung out… rested.. cleaned a little bit, watched this awesome movie, and just tried to relax. Yesterday Peter dragged me to a show at the Expo Center yesterday morning (I’d rather not say what kind of show or what kind of morning we had. Let’s just say I couldn’t wait till getting to my parents house)  then spend the afternoon at my parentals.. celebrating my dads birthday with our familys favorite mom meal, Meatloaf Beatloaf. YUM. It was the entire family, Peter and Kristines husband Steve was there too.. it was nice to have all of us together. (Only body missing was Pez)  I think Peter and I have hit the threshhold of us spending time together.. we’ve been quite bickery lately with each other. He’s changing his schedule so he works till 10pm on Tuesday-Thursday and I am actually kinda grateful.. it will make our spending time together closer. We both are very independent people.. and it’s kinda nice to BOTH have our own space.  It doesn’t feel good to want to be close and mushy with your love.. when you are being bickery with them.  Boo.

So one of my co-workers here in the office introduced a few of us to the Master Cleanse and well.. I really could use a kick start to eating healthier.. and well.. losing a few lbs in the meantime ain’t so bad either… so we decided to do it for 10 days. Today is Day one.. I know it has it’s own sceptics.. and I ask that if you are one, I lovingly request to support me.. even if it is a different choice than what you would make. Again.. with my philosophy of “What do I REALLY have to lose?” Ten Days? Should… go by relatively quickly. I’ve been doing some research online.. others experieinces.. and well.. I know I can do it. I’m still nervous but I reference a book that a friend gave me years ago.. “FEEL THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY.” that’s what I’m doing… I’m doing it anyway.  And AWAY we go!  (For those that don’t know… Basically a Liquid Fast  – drinking a Lemon/Syrup/Cayenne Formula instead of food all day - with a laxative/natural ‘purging’ element to it as well.)

Ok I do have a question for you that has me sincerely intrigued.. and I would love your thoughts on this… I’m not out looking for kudos.. but I’m totally curious..

What is it about ME (Kerilyn Fox) that makes people remember me? I have had some interesting experiences in my life where, after meeting someone once or never but someone sees me from afar,etc… (and me never remembering them) they remember me. Why is that? What is so… memorable about me that they remember me?  I find this so intriguing….. It happened this weekend and I’m just curious.

Peter says it’s cause I’m tall.. and I have big Brown Eyes and a big smile.. (and I do smile at people a lot.. I always catch the cashiers name as I’m taking the receipt at the grocery store and I say with a Big Smile.. “Thanks Judy/Roland/Jamiel!” Maybe that’s why? And that I’m positive. (I have to laugh at this….if you only knew how many times I’m NOT positive.. it sometimes takes some pushing from my inner self to “snap out of it!” and get back to being happy/grateful. I laugh a lot inside about this.)

I also know that I’m an Empath. I’ve tried to deny this but it just is… I have the ability to make others feel what I feel.. Good AND Bad. Trust me.. when Kerilyn is in a bad mood.. WATCH OUT! Everyone can feel it. Same goes when I feel inspired.. I can inspire others. I know this about me… Sometimes it’s not the easiest.. I have a REALLY hard time hiding how I feel.. it’s written ALL over my face.. and in my energy… So you really do get the sense of ‘What you see is what you get”.  As well as…i tend to ‘read’ someone relatively immediately and make a quick and intuitive impression about someone and their nature. I have been wrong on a rare occasion.. (or I might have a STRONG desire to sabotage myself by ’reading’ someone that could validate my lack of self worth – uh don’t make me say their names.) but most of the time.. I’m usually confirmed on my initial impressions. Maybe that’s what it is… that people remember about me? People can sense that i’m wanting to “know’ them.. or ‘read’ them? Does this even make sense?

I’m totally curious.. What is your take?

Will leave you here… Hope you have a great day!
Wish me luck on this Cleanse!!! I know I can do it!!! I can do ANYTHING I put my mind to!!! Yippee!
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Sitting out Back

Hiety Ho my lovelies…

What a beautiful evening.. EXACTLY what a spring evening should feel like… Can sit outside without a sweater on… but the gentle gentle breeze I can feel on my skin… in an hour or two that sweater will come in handy. Decided to bring my lovely Ranunculus Flowers that I got at Trader Joes this week outside.. and sit out back… enjoy the chirping birds, look thru my magazines and relish in the fact that it’s Friday and I have a really lovely weekend in store.

Peter bought us a “Perfect places to stay, eat and explore in Italy’ along with a map so we can calculate our  route…  Ain’t he the cutest?  I am so grateful for him… Sigh.

I’m actually waiting for him to get home so we can enjoy some Sushi. Yum. I feel like I’ve been craving Sushi a bit lately… It’s so good.

I must admit to you all.. I had a bit of a frustrating week. Going to and Fro New Jersey last weekend in such a short period of time.. and under the emotional terms we did (Peter agreed to hand over caretaking duties of his Beloved Bella to his brother John and his wife, Kate, to give Pez and I some time to bond without the fear (my fear) of a fierce interaction between the two.  Peter has been amazing. My heart breaks a little bit to know his girl is not with him.. especially at nite which is when Peter and Bella would ‘be’.  Then.. we get back Monday. I’m too pooped to pop on Monday to run… Tuesday and Wednesday I make it to THREE miles!!! Wahoo!! I am so proud of myself.. Then a setback…Tuesday it rained and I wore open shoes… got a HUGE Silver Dollar blister on the ball of my foot…from my feet getting wet and the rubbing of my shoe… which.. by Thursday.. had become infected… So my Run on Thursday was LESS than desired. I actually came home last nite with a Fever.. fell asleep at 8pm with the chills.. i’m sure my bodys way of fighting off infection. I feel fine today except its still uncomfortable to walk on it. Better than yesterday, with proper tools (peroxide, Neosporin, and Bandages) but still.. I didn’t even push it and run tonite… and I’m sitting here feeling a bit crummy that I didn’t meet this weeks goal of exercising. Bums me out quite a bit… oh well… guess I gotta remember that i have over 4 months to go… to the big day…that’s 16 weeks plus where i can make up for it… right?

Your probably wondering why I am even trying so hard… to lose weight.. in order to fit into my awesome dress… Well.. I guess, if i may be so bold… I have always felt really happy to be a girl.. all the perks it has.. getting your nails/feet done.. cute shoes… makeup.. dresses and skirts…jewelry to suit my mood.. different perfumes.. It’s always been something i’ve really enjoyed. Along with my faith.. my wonderful friends.. feeling SO good to finally feel where i am supposed to be.. with my love Peter and in my career… I’m always busy doing things.. seeing things..trying new things, etc.. that well… I really feel like I could enjoy those things more.. FEELING more comfortable in my body. I have always looked on with jealousy at women who can walk into my favorite shop Anthropologie and be able to buy whatever they wanted… I want that… for me. I guess I feel like my spirit… of wanting to inspire others.. to believe.. help others believe…. is kinda the hopeless romantic… and well.. my Spirit doesn’t feel like it suits this big body o’ mine.  Now I know Peter loves me the way I am and my friends  do too.. but I really want the OUTSIDE to match the INSIDE… Does that make sense??? I want this for ME… I can tell.. just in the last 6 months.. that ME is coming out more.. wanting to look pretty and buy new shoes… Back in 1997 I was thin… after losing 70 lbs… but I didn’t really think of it as the OUTSIDE matching the inside because to tell you the truth.. I was pretty lost… I still didn’t know where I was going or what I wanted to do…. NOW… I feel SO…. DEEP breath… into where I am in my life.. that I have never wanted the outside to match the inside more… So if you’re wondering why am I doing this…. That’s why…

I have always loved the kind of friend I am. Perfect, NO WAY. But I love sincerely, and truly. It gives me no greater pleasure than to touch someone.. to help them feel better.. have hope. And well.. it would be nice if, when looking in the mirror… i was able to project that hope….onto myself and into the Body that matches how I feel inside.

With ALL that in mind.. shifting gears a second… a few of my co-workers have been talking about doing the Master Cleanse and well.. it makes me a little nervous.. but going with my Life Philosophy of “What do I REALLY have to lose???” I’m going to try it.. next week.. for 10 days.  Now this is NOT a diet.. i’m not one for dieting.. but more of a Lifestyle change. This cleanse gives the internal organs a chance to rest.. and purge all the toxins and chemicals that we take in year after year.. Do I know how this is going to go? NO. But i hear that If i can make it to day 4.. that mental clarity comes with doing this. So why not? I need to kickstart my adding more healthy eating to the recipe.. than to take a ‘time out’ and clean the pipes.  We’ll see… One day at a time… as they say.

So I will leave you this evening.. tranquil.. hoping you have a great weekend. My plans are nice and easy.. tomorrow morning I have a facial scheduled with my girl Kristy.. then maybe do some planting… going to a party with Peter Saturday nite.. then Sunday.. my wonderful Sunday Morning Routine of Coffee/Newspaper/Sunday Morning Edition.. and then we’re going to my parents house to celebrate my Dads Birthday (tomorrow).  I’m looking forward to it all!!

Hope you have a good one.
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Nighttime... with You...

Evening…

So this is what I’m doing… as you can now see yourself…I’m sitting outside.. with Peters Storm Watch Candle Burning (The smell that is.. HIS SMELL – Thank You Kristine for buying them for him) I was clipping coupons (Yes.. I’ve beared witness to the money saving a coupon or two can do to your budget.. begrudgingly) listening to Jazz coming from inside… Thanks to the Real Jazz channel on Sirius.. and just enjoying the evening.. after an enjoyable day… a “so much myself” day.. with my girl Kristy… talking to you.

I was introduced to a concept that I had NEVER given much thought to before. Actually Talking to and Befriending the other Parts of me that I hear my head. The perverbial Devil/Angel on the Shoulder. That’s the topic of the Free Workshop that Kristy and I went to. I don’t think I ever thought to BEFRIEND the other voices before… to help understand how I am able to do the things I do (and do to myself) good and bad. It hit me midway thru this workshop (Thankfully) as it became clear that one of the voices in my head is an “Inner Critic”.. Someone who tells me I’m not good enough or thin enough.. that I’m not worth it. (Boy would I like to get my hands on this “Part” of me that caused MYSELF so much pain) I never thought to befriend this side.. to ask it what it’s purpose is… and how it Serves me.. But I saw myself talking to this not so nice side of myself.. and I found that I WANTED to understand why it was so hard on me.. harsh words/emotions of shame and guilt come from it. And Dang it.. Now I want to know why.

So I will be doing some offline journalling on this subject.. (of course I want to share with you but there is just some vomiting of my inside world that has to be done offline) Trying to get a sense of who these other parts are.. and what their purpose is. We did a short period of silence where we wrote down what we initally thought our other Parts are… For the purpose of , well.. being Me and hopefully getting you to understand what I’m saying… Here are the, off the cuff, parts of myself.. that came to the surface enough to be written down. Hopefully you’ll find this as interesting as I did. (Not in any order of importance.. just how they came out)

- Inner Critic (Judge,Juror,Plaintiff)
- Sado-Masochist (Selfish, Sociopathic, Bossy, Pleasure )
- Abused/Caged Dog Syndrome (Anxiety,”No, don’t hurt me”, Prostrating)
- Little Girl (Scared but wanting to be Fancy Free)
- Baptist Minister (Fire and Brimstone/Right vs Wrong)
- Teacher ( Patient, Understanding, Non-Judgmental)
- Seductress ( Beguiling, Persistant)
- Nerd (Loner,Intelligence, Planner)
- Stuntman (Do It!, Jump!, GO GO GO!)
- Romantic Dreamer/Artist (Melancholy,Tormented,Wistful,Feeling)

Interesting Huh? I am ALL of these parts.. I’m sure other parts as well but this is just what came out..It made TOTAL Sense to me.. to read this.. It felt right inside… (NO.. this is not about schizophrenia or multiple personalities.. this is the different personas we carry around within us… when facing a new or scary experience)

The Trick is.. to BEFRIEND these parts.. to talk to these parts to try to find out why they are there.. maybe what experiences they were created from.. and how they can work together with you to help you be more open to knowing who you are.

I find what I’ve learned fascinating. I think all the work I’ve done inside and outside this past year. I really could use a Friend from the inside out. I want to work to understand these different parts.. and how we.. as a weird sort of 24/7 team can help use this info in helping me be a better…. well, me.

Does this make sense? I will say the workshop came from a purely scientific psychological place.. NOT a spiritual place at all.. I did find myself resisting the notion that we conjure up all deeply profound inner wisdom from our experiences during THIS lifetime and 100% subscribe that our past lives and the Karma that has been brought forth to this lifetime has helped forge that inner knowing… to help create parts of our inner world to help facilitate our journey.

I won’t bore you with the surface stuff of my day.. beautiful weather.. beautiful friends… feeling EXACTLY where I am supposed to be.. more beautiful than I EVER have… But leave you with these thoughts.. Please feel free to tell me what you think on this.. It’s intriguing.. I just scratched the surface of this mindset… and am now curious to see where it goes from here.

Have a great rest of your weekend.
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Morning!

My wonderful Auntie graciously sent me this (Via Carrie Hart/Quado that I’ve been inspired by for years) and I wanted to share it with you. It inspires me! Being a Fox by Name (until September that is..) I find these words resonate with me… about me.. within me…and I will be invoking the Spirit of the Fox as I continue my journey… The Fox will always live within me… and me in Her.

Fox Power Unleashed
Here, come here, come with me now into this deep thicket.  Feel how
easily you can slip through the secret passageways of life, following
the certain knowledge passed down to you by the generations of foxes
who came before.  It seems dark, but you can see, you can feel what is
around you.  You feel a deep oneness with the ground under your feet
and the foliage tight around you.  There is a deep security and confidence in
your knowingness, for you are the fox and life is an endless series of unfolding
passages known only to you.

At Ease in Social Situations
As a fox, you live easily in many worlds.  One world is that of glorious
sunshine and fellowship, in which your beauty shines out for all to see.
In this world of interpersonal relationships, you are beauty and grace
itself.  You can mix easily with others and have supreme confidence in
your sleek elegance and glowing beauty.  You are always right in all
social situations, for your innate sense of confidence in your own
beautiful shine makes it easy for you to be charming and witty, the center
of attention when you care to be.  All shyness and concern over your
appearance disappear as you walk about easily, knowing that you are
exactly as you should be, looking just as you should look, doing exactly
what is needed in the situation. 

Your social life is easy and flowing.  And it comes from an innate charm,
the charm that is known only to those who are so confident in their
appearance and manner that they are never self-conscious and worried,
but instead can allow themselves to focus easily on others, knowing an
ease in social situations built on a central core of confidence and
self-love.  This ease is now yours, for you are the fox.

The Ability to Blend at Will
Even though you have the ability to shine in the social world, you are
also able to blend in and virtually disappear when that is required or
desired.  You have an uncanny ability to call in your camouflage and
slinky ways when you care to.  When you choose not to be the center of
attention, you simply disappear, mentally going into a little foxhole
and allowing yourself to be disguised by your colors.  This ability is
like pulling a cloak of invisibility over you, and you use it at will. 
This means that in a stressful situation, when others are looking to
find someone to take the blame, you pull your fox invisibility down and
simply observe, unemotionally, not attached to the outcome, but watching with
your alert eyes and mind, waiting until the right time to emerge.

Though you may seem invisible to others in these circumstances, you are in a
state of high alert, watching and seeing into others.  For you have
the ability to see and feel and know the emotional state and mental
intentions of those around you.  And you use this to decide whether to
shine out with charm and wit or to withdraw into invisibility.  The
combination of these two skills allows you to move easily in the world
of others, dealing with outer situations in whatever way your intuition
tells you, for you are the fox.

Intuition and Anticipation
Your intuition is your greatest ally in your life, for it is not only
attuned to what others are doing and thinking right now, but is an
intuition of anticipation. Your sharp intelligence combines with your
intense intuition to allow you to anticipate what is coming.  When you
feel good things coming, you preen your beauty and step out into the
light.  When you anticipate trouble, you slip down the foxhole and simply
go away, letting it stroll down the path and miss you completely.

Even though you are always in a state of high awareness, you are very
relaxed. Your trust in your intuition is such that you never worry. 
You know that you will be able to anticipate trouble and slip away. 
And when you find yourself in the circle of others, you know that your
clever ways and great charm and beauty will help you through.  You are
therefore utterly confident, relaxed and fearless, for you are the fox.

Devotion to Others
There is yet another life you enjoy and that is the life of your family.
(Kerilyn says ‘Friends are our Chosen Family’)
You are devoted to those you love and spend wonderful moments cuddled up
warmly in the circle of friends and family.  You are able to develop very close-knit
relationships that last for a lifetime.  Your deep confidence and love of
yourself allow you to be deeply compassionate and loving with others.  You are
not competitive or aggressive.  You are loving and caring, always a good helper
and teammate.  The friendships you form are deep and lasting and your family is
a great comfort.  You know that the petty annoyances of others are nothing
compared to this great bond and the love you share when you are tucked away in
your hidden home, away from the glare of the light and the intrusions of
outsiders, safe and warm and comforted in the center of your own clan.

The Ability to See New Patterns
You see patterns differently than others.  The world through your eyes is
like a network of interconnected things, all there for you to make sense
of.  What is a solid obstacle to others is a network of open opportunities
to you, like a bush that appears solid but is really just leaves and
branches that easily give way when you have the heart, courage and
creativity to just charge right in.

Your uncanny ability to build new pathways in difficult terrain keeps
your beauty intact as you travel, allowing you to emerge victorious
where others become scratched and bruised.  You emerge in your beauty
effortlessly as the world naturally gives way and opens up to you, for you are
the fox.

Resourceful and Clever Problem-Solver
This ability to see patterns missed by others and to discern openings
in the densest of circumstances makes you a consummate problem-solver. 

Your mind is faster than most, and you solve problems quickly and
decisively. Your mind is too quick to spend time in analysis and
pondering, in explanations and justifications.  You perceive and you
act.  Your cleverness and intuition work together seamlessly, for you
are the fox. (Ok..NOT me..Actually I’m the Opposite… sez Kerilyn)

You are deeply resourceful and endlessly clever.  There is no situation
that can get the better of you (um… Kerilyn says REALLY? HA!) , for you
are always able to find new ways out of difficult situations. 
(Again, Kerilyn says.. um… I don’t think so. Laughing!)
You are  never cornered and unable to act.  You never just still and fall into
despair.  Your alert mind and highly developed instincts always
help you find a little hole to scurry down or a new path to forge. 
You have a highly developed sense of the ways one might go,
the many solutions to any problem.  You are full of creativity and fun,
forging new pathways, opening new explorations and adventures,
quickly darting here and there and finding ways to leave
this and run to that.
(OK.. Kerilyn says..That paragraph doesn’t really apply to me..)

Your life is fun and exciting, full of creativity and newness, for you
are the fox.

How to Join with Fox Energy
Fox Invocation

I breathe in deeply and open myself to golden cleansing energy
I ask that it may flow through me, from head to toe,
Clearing me and preparing me for the vibrant energy of the fox

My mind is quiet and clear
I am open now to new ways of thinking

My heart opens wide and grows soft and warm
I am open now to new ways of loving

My center grows calm and deep
Like an endless pool of still water
I am open now to new ways of being
I am ready

I stand in the light of love
And invite fox energy to come to me now
To fill me and empower me
To transform my life through the great gifts of the fox

I feel the fox energy as it fills me
As I run joyfully through the underbrush, from burrow to bush,
I feel life becoming clear and making sense, like a puzzle I know
how to solve I fill with confidence in my own great beauty and charm
I feel my intuition growing sharper as I fill with a deep
connection with all that surrounds me
And my heart opens wide as I fill with gentle love
I know my power, the power of the fox

I am now one with fox energy
I will feel it and be it in every moment
For I am the fox

I am completely at ease in social situations
Fully confident of my charm and beauty
And that I will always know just how to act
And when I want to, I blend in invisibly
For I am the fox

My intuition is so strong and I am so closely attuned to others
That nothing ever takes me by surprise
For I am the fox

I give thanks for this gift, for this grace
And with each breath I take I now know
I am the fox
* * *

And now, you are one with the fox.  Let your self-consciousness and
worry disappear as you open to your own beauty and wonder, as you allow your
charm to develop.  Enjoy the cleverness of your quick mind as the world gives
way to you, both to your social presence and to your
endlessly creative solutions to problems that arise.  You are deeply
loved by your friends and family.  Your life is fun and joyful as you
enjoy the many gifts that are effortlessly yours.  You are the fox.

Hiety Ho my Loverlies!!!

How are you this Tuesday Morning? I  know that for me.. this Tuesday morning is dreary and overcast.. the water is moving pretty rapidly on the potomac… I kinda can’t wait till the weather stabilizes itself in a 65-70 degree Run… instead of 70 today and 35 tomorrow… It gets kinda depressing when you can’t really get excited about your New $15.00 Halter dress from Ross when you walk outside and it’s really chilly!  And I have THREE pair of awesome Peep Toe Shoes that are sitting in Boxes WAITING for me to put them on and enjoy the breeze as it hits my toesies… freshly pedicured that is. Waiting on that shift of consistantly warmer weather to get a Pedicure.. No sense when tomorrow I’ll have to wear socks again. Boo.

Yesterday I took off from work which was WONDERFUL! (sorta) It was nice to not have to wake up early.. BUT I think I kinda ruined Peters only day off this week with my annoying clean freak tendencies. And I also think that from time to time.. I have a low blood sugar thing.. if I don’t eat and i’m hungry..I get SERIOUSLY irritable!!! Whew! It’s like I become this raging bull.. that wants to run (drive) fast and butt my head up against anything that moves quickly. Whew. (Sorry Honey.)  Peter said he’s going to start to carry a candy bar in his pocket to calm me down when I “get” that way again. (Make it a LOWFAT Granola bar and it’s a deal!) Anyway.. I know I can get pretty hard to handle at times. Unfortunately.

Peter got us AWESOME Diamond Club Seats for the Washington Nationals Opening Day Game…(Check out the Pics on my Flickr) through someone he knows at the Restaurant (of course.. he knows Everyone!) And They had IN SEAT Food Service.. Someone who comes and takes your “order” at your seat (2 hot dogs and 2 beers please!) It was so cool! We were seated right behind home plate!! There was some issue with the Kitchen… so our food was VERY DELAYED (see above with regard to low blood sugar) So I was a HUNGRY GRIZZLY BEAR before the 3rd inning to tell you the truth!!!! (putting it mildly) but once we got that figured out… We had such a GREAT time!!!! I don’t really subscribe to any particular team.. but just love Baseball in General. (Reminds me of my Grandpa… watching the Game with no sound on .. on the back porch of the house) I had a GREAT time with my honey.

Also can’t forget to mention our Easter Dinner with the Neighbors (again.. check out my Pictures) It was a great time.. good food… good friends.. still a little chilly out… Grr.. but I am blessed to have such great Neighbors. My cup runneth Over.

Okay… Feel like doing 3 things 2 things:

3 things that make me happy:

1. Texting Back and Forth with my Best Friend Matthew today. I am so grateful to have him in my life… I can’t say it enough.
2. Liking my haircut! (Just got little layers for some more flippy doo dah at the bottom) Can’t really tell too much… but to me.. I can.
3. Feeling Really Sexy in my $15.00 Ross Dress on Easter
4. My Gratitude Journal that I got at the NBM Shop while Volunteering on Sunday! I haven’t written in it yet but I will start tonite Before catching some zzz’s.

2 things I look forward to today:

1. Going HOME and doing ALL my laundry.. and cleaning out my closet… I’ve been SO slack in the laundry/clothes area of my life. I need to really put some focus there.. spend a few hours purging/organizing.
2. I’m going to go to the grocery and getting the ingredients for a Strawberry Chicken Salad in a Whole Wheat Pita! YUM! I’m going to make a big batch so we can eat it for a few days for dinner! Actually been wanting to really focus on different Chicken Salads for dinner.. as a healthy alternative.

2 long term things I look forward to:

1. This weekend Kristy and I are going to a free Workshop at the Inner Arts Center about MUSES & INNER CRITICS: Understanding and living with your subpersonalities)
2. So many things to do, friends to catch up with this Spring! Sitting outside at a restaurant (Healthy that is!) Potting Plants… Summer dinners with Neighbors.. Running 5K Races.. (about to sign up for another one with my girlfriend Steph!)  Getting the final arrangements for the Wedding in September… Cute new Shoes… Strawberry Smoothies.. the way that my feet feel on the grass… eating lunch on the Bench outside my office…. Going to Charleston for a MUCH needed Kindred Spirit weekend with my girl Michelle… Going bowling and to a baseball game with my Dad… Planning more itinerary for our Honeymoon to Italy… Daydreaming about Baby “things”…
                                                            i could go on……….

1 person I am going to appreciate:
My love… Peter My love… God Bless that man.. putting up with the Grizzly Bear yesterday.. saying “Relax Baby RELAX!!” When I get all fired up and anxious about something… I don’t know how he does it. I can be such a handful sometimes…. It’s like I know I need to calm down but I just seemingly cannot.. I wish I could slap myself sometimes. I look at him.. and I KNOW… this is meant to be… All the years that passed.. the experiences we had.. both together and apart.. that made us 100% ready for where we are… It’s like beyond words. I can’t tell you how amazing it feels when.. I’ll be sitting at my desk upstairs.. and He’ll call to me.. “Honey?” and I’ll say.. Yes? and come to the stairs..and he’ll say.. “I love you very much.” Oh man… what an amazing feeling.  We have so much fun laughing and just being ourselves (even the yucky parts) that I feel so ‘at home’ when I am with Peter.

Ok.. Enough yapping from me… Hope you have a great day!!!!
Much Love,
Kerilyn