Hiety Ho….(And a Shout out to my boy Matthew….Happy Now?)

I know.. I know… I have not written in a week… Where to start??? hmm… So much to fill you in on… Hmm…Well I started with what I thought was a head cold back on the 18th of December… which turned into full blown flu… drs appt… NOT being able to breathe out my nose… fevers.. Ugh.. God Bless Peter.. I have been a handful and then some… The Dr told me that I really shouldn’t be going anywhere for a few days.. this was the day before Christmas eve.. so I was understandably really upset.. (again.. God Bless Peter.. putting up with my 2 yr old little girl crying thinking I was going to have to cancel Christmas plans) But.. I pushed thru it with the help of a slew of medicines and forcing myself to rest..

I didn’t run in almost a week and half.. Ugh.. I missed it a LOT…. up to TWO MILES NOW!!! Can you believe it… 3 months ago I was trying for a half a mile.. and now.. TWO MILES… Ok so I wanted to be at 3 miles by now but whatever.. At least I’m still running every day and I’m seeing a difference.. That’s all that matters to me!!! I will be running a 5K in the Spring.. Mark My Words!!!!

Christmas Eve at my sisters house (We’re starting a new tradition switching off houses at Christmas time.. Next Year will be at the Russos – thats OUR house!!! Hee Hee! We will try to get the NJ Russos to our house but we’ll see… our place is an ok size but all those people… meh.. not sure) I got my New Sirius Radio (Thanks Mom/Dad/Krissy/Steve) to replace the one that was stolen in my car in September.. THANK GOODNESS… I cannot TELL you how much I’ve missed listening to the Chill Channel on my way to/from work… and Reggae.. 24 hours a day… Heaven!!! Peters going to reinstall it on Friday.. whew! can’t wait!!! ANYWAY.. Christmas Eve/Morning was filled with yummy mom foods… and spending time with family.. After Breakfast we got on the road and drove to NJ despite me still not feeling well.. (Damn my clogged head!) We spent a few days in NJ with Peters family… and can I just tell you…

I love his family.. It’s the long lost Italian family that I’ve been missing since my grandparents “went home”… A loud and exhuberant and loving family… the Francos from Long Island.. and all the Russos… I had a great time.. ate well.. received some loverly gifts.. and just hung out.. the Day after christmas.. I spent the entire day in my pajamas… the whole family did for the most part.. SO NICE!!! I didnt’ really start to truly feel better till Saturday, Dec 27th…I had a great time.. Just makes me so excited for what this next year is to bring!!! We drove home Saturday evening.. and I am really blessed.. Peter and I.. singing Frank Sinatra songs in the car.. What more could you ask for (Peter put a “Singing Star” Award in my stocking – yea yea.. I can sing) I will tell you that knowing our story…. Peter and I are more in love with each other now.. than ever before.. It’s just like this amazing feeling… I cannot describe it…

Back at work…. still stuffy head but I’m 87% back to snuff.. Yesterday was the “walk through” at the house… in Del Ray… Long story but it ended up just being Kevin and I… and well.. I will say our last meeting was bittersweet….. I handed in the Key.. we made small talk about the house.. and I walked away… waiting for my Security Deposit back in a week or so.. and am DONE!!! What a year.. This has been both the most beautiful and also heart breaking year of my life.. I mean when God changes something.. they don’t do it lightly , do they? (yes they) .. I cried on my drive home a bit…not because I am regretful.. but as a releasing.. or closing of a chapter that has brought about much growth…. much pain… along with much joy….. so I can say it.. I’M DONE!!!! DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE!!!!

(It needed it’s own line)

No more house to contend with.. no more excuses.. or wondering what if…. no more begging or loneliness… feeling unworthy… No, I walked out of that house and into a new really exciting chapter… already in process… and with this New Year… 2009 promises to bring about some amazing experiences… I am sure of that!!!

Tomorrow is New Years Eve.. and my 34th Birthday… on the itinerary.. I’m leaving work at noon.. grabbing some grub.. and then going to get my feetsies done with my girl Kristy.. then making myself all dolled up for a group of 10 of my friends.. we’re going to have dinner and ring in the year at Lias (Peters Restaurant) Peter has to work and I couldn’t think of any other place I would watn to be than with my love… Giving him a Kiss to welcome in 2009. What an awesome one it’s going to be.. I assure you.

So onto my goals… my 2009 Goals… I don’t have many but their very important:

1. Keep Running. No matter what.. Keep running. I WILL be running a 5K in the Spring.. and then many more after that…
2. Get BACK to working on my cards..I can say this past year I have not made a ONE card.. yes.. I said YEAR.. (actually since Thanksgiving 2007) and now that my little studio space is getting all set up.. I’m feeling the energy coming back… It is my goal to get my cards in 2 new shops by June.. maybe more.
3. Take a Belly Dancing Class.. Already have one picked out!
4. Get back into Group Meditation…. Yoga Studio RIGHT around the corner from me.. and I’ve already contacted them about Meditation class… Next week or so I’m ON it!!
5. Go on a long weekend trip with my boy Matthew….. I have been SO looking to spending some good quality time with him now that he’s back from duty in Iraq (get over it Matthew.. I said it)
6. Finish up all the planning I have to do for September 26th… I’m glad it’s the Fun stuff!!!
7. SAVE SAVE SAVE money… I am excited because I feel like this year is going to be my most prosperous… financially… and that will prove useful in September!!!
8. *** Take a Digital Photography class – now that I have my nice new Digital SLR Camera.. I want to learn how to use it!!! I am so excited to get out there and take some amazing pics!!!!! Woo hoo!!!

So It is now New Years Eve (flash forward from yesterday) and so.. in approximately 12 minutes I will be 34 years old!!! Amazing how much can change in one year!!! I will honestly say that I NEVER expected to be where I am today… but I am so glad I am!!! I can say that I feel more beautiful.. more loved.. and EXACTLY where I am supposed to be.. I have never been this excited to ring in a new year!!!

PS: AWESOME NEWS!!!!! : About 3 weeks ago.. My friend Kristy suggested we try to volunteer to work at the Inauguration of Barack Obama… so she created a group with her friend.. and we filled out the forms.. it said that there are soo many people that sign up to volunteer that it’s not guaranteed that I’ll get to volunteer.. WELL…. last nite.. my blackberry goes off (BARRRING!) and it’s an email saying that I am selected to be a volunteer.. and I get to now take a training class and information so I can Volunteer!!! !!! WAHOO!!! I’m excited to be a part in any way I can.. to participate in this amazing event!!!!! SO COOL!!!! GO BARACK!!!

Thank You everyone… for supporting me.. for being there.. for carrying me when I was too upset to walk… for listening and letting me cry.. for celebrating with me… I am a very blessed and lucky woman… and don’t think for a SECOND that I don’t know that!!!

I’m off.. into the Great Blue Yander… to celebrate!!! Go… do the sameth…
Happy New Year!!!
Much Love
Kerilyn

Hi Everyone!!!!

OH my gosh.. If you know me you KNOW that I feel SO strongly when I find something that inspires/moves/touches me… oh my gosh…

I want you to all run out/log on.. do what you have to do and see this movie…

Angel-A

I caught it on Showtime (I think) this weekend..A French Foreign Film… (images of Valentines Day Proposals in Paris made me want to spit (heh heh) but Meh.. get OVER yourself Kerilyn!!! Random Thoughts…don’t mind me)

I think I’m going to rent ALL of the movies (foreign and domestic) that this Director (Luc Besson) has done… Yippee!!! He moves me.. He did The Fifth Element and The Big Blue (Some of my ALL TIME FAVORITE MOVIES!!!!)

HOLY MOLY!!! I haven’t even seen it from the beginning (yet) and I was moved.. (now granted I have a nasty head cold so maybe my emotions are fuzzy cause of that… NAH.. I just LOVED this movie!!!)

I’m not going to tell you too much… but It’s about EXACTLY what I’m facing.. Loving OURSELVES!!!!! In such a beautiful and artistic way.. (a such a Parisian way…)

GO… Check out this movie and let me know what you think!!!!

Kerilyn

Hiety Ho my loverlies!!!

How ya doin? I’m groovy…. Wednesday.. how i wish it was Thursday… But hopefully this day will fly by… heh… I want to do a 3 things 2 things AND I want to tell you what my New Years Goals are… (Resolutions are so…. Resolute.. Goals sound much better.. not as Rigid)

So let me get to it…3 things 2 things :

3 things that make me happy:
1. Last nite.. my friends Stephanie, Scott, Sarah, Peter and I met up at this Seafood Restaurant called Black Salt for a christmas dinner.. (Check out Flickr Photos) a few cocktails before hand… and some really yummy Seafood (Their Butterfish Appetizer.. HIGHLY recommended!!!) Good Talks with Good Friends….. that’s what this time of year is all about!!! I’m glad that my friends got to spend time with Peter again.. Steph and Scott have met him before…. so it’s good to reconnect.
2. Since I went to Macys last weekend and bought some new clothes to fit my slightly smaller body.. I have been wearing new clothes every day this week.. It is nice to wear something new…
(Side note: There is a really good article that Oprah wrote about gaining weight after losing so much… anyone interested in the psychology of losing a lot of weight and putting it back on… this is a good reference from an emotional point of view.. just saying.)
3. Just happy to be so blessed with wonderful friends… and happy that I can see how many things I have to be happy about.

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Getting a lovely Steak and Cheese Pita for lunch today.. YUM!!!
2. Running… next week I’m going up to 2 miles a day! Yippee!!!
3. Tonite.. I am going home.. doing a load of laundry.. making myself a loverly Pork Chop dinner and catching up on my Tivo Shows.. in my PJ’s.. and trying to go to bed early. I’ve been a busy bee this week and I’m tuckered out!

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
1. I CANT WAIT to see Matthew again.. to get and give a BIG HUG.. to see his face.. and hear his voice in person… Don’t know when.. but hopefully soon!!!
2. Having Sirius in my car again.. I have been going thru withdrawl since September!!! Miss listening to the Reggae channel and CHILL channel.. Sigh..

1 person I am going to appreciate:
My friend Sarah.. I don’t know her super well.. but she has such a GREAT positive attitude… I get this girly tee hee inside when I hear her talk about how great life works out.. (talking to her about the events of this past year) and how happy she is for me.. It just makes me that much happier.. and grateful.. I really hope that I get to know her better in 2009 before she leaves for UCLA in June….

I’ll have to do my New Years Goals tomorrow… not feeling it now.. typing them out.
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Hi there folksies..

Here’s me… on a Monday afternoon.. Peter text me a picture of him saying… “Show me how happy you are?” So I sent him this picture of me… I thought I’d share with you…. for obvious reasons.. This is me in my station… And I love my job.. location.. people…all of the above so it’s not too hard to show how happy I am… I loved my new outfit that day.. catch a glimpse of the bright purple dress I was wearing.. I looked good too… tee hee..

Yesterday it was warm out.. mid 60’s.. unusual.. We had a little shin dig at our neighborhood.. Eggnog.. Cider… Booze… Hot Chocolate… PLENTY of sugar treats.. cookies.. etc… Roasting Chestnuts on an open fire.. (no really we did that) Santa (aka Peter in a wig and Beard) My girl Kristy came…. chilled with us a while.. Unfortunately the little party had a MUCH bigger potential than what actually manifested.. not many people were there and it didn’t have the energy i was hoping for… oh well.. there’s always next year! Today it’s back down to the 30’s..BRR cold… Ugh!

anyway… onto 3 things 2 things:

3 things that make me happy:
1. Hot Pho on a cold and yucky Day…My favorite Salesperson Bob and I just got back from Pho after going to a job site to do some field verifications.. SO yummy in the tummy on this dreary kinda day..
2. Seeing the Christmas Tree lit up in the front window .. as I drive down the street… The lights going up the stairs.. our stockings.. playing the Christmas channel on Sirius… Just that sense of Spirit… I love it!!! Seeing my kitty girl sitting underneath the tree. Precious.
3. At nite.. when Peter and I go to sleep.. we always intertwine our feet together so they touch each other.. it’s such a nice feeling when going to sleep.

2 things that I look forward to today:
1. Honestly going to sleep tonite.. I’m tired… and feel emotional today… Not necessarily 100% sociable today.
2. I am looking forward to dinner with Stephanie, Scott and Sarah tonite with Peter. We’re going to Black Salt I am hoping they have Lobster Bisque that I keep hearing is good there!

2 long term things I look forward to:
1. Saturday.. waking up with my honey… (he’s off Saturdays) and then going to get my hair done at Aveda at Noonish.. then taking my honey to his favorite Fogo De Chao (A Brazilian Steakhouse) and then I’m taking him to go see Jim Brickman – Romantic Evening I hope!!!
2. Sunday just chilling out… Waking up.. Sunday Morning Edition.. Newspaper.. Maybe finish up my christmas shopping…. My sister is probably going to come and keep me company.
3. Finishing setting up the bedroom… Putting all my clothes away in my dresser that i’ve missed so much the past 5 months.. and getting the room back in some semblance of a shape!

1 person that I am going to appreciate:
My girlfriend Kristy.. I met her on a whim.. on Craigslist.. and we have become really good friends…. I am really grateful she is in my life.. We have intertwined our lives and our stories together.. I am very lucky..

Also.. Peter.. I know that I have been a handful lately.. I think the actual settling in that the stuff with the house is over.. and I have nothing left to worry about.. Shifting gears takes a moment of adjustment.. Starting with a day of doing nothing…

Ok.. yawn.. I’m ready for the end of the day.
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Morning my Kindred Spirits…

Ok… I have very strange news… I found another Kerilyn Fox on Facebook.. She’s only 18 years old.. but It’s CREEPING me out!!! Eww.. knowing someone out there has my exact name.. is creepy. I actually emailed her.. and she feels the same way… (I feel kinda better that I existed first? Is that weird to say?)

anyway.. I had to get that out… eww.

OK.. It’s Wednesday… Feeling good today… It’s warmer than usual outside.. mid-60’s today .. which is FINE with me! I can’t find my favorite red scarf and I’m glad I didn’t need it today!

onto 3 things 2 things :

3 things that make me happy:
1. Reading this Daily Om today. It made me reconnect with the smaller… little blessings I have. instead of trying to find the big ones everyday.. There are so many smaller blessings that I think I have been overlooking.
2. Good Cup of Coffee this morning.
3. Sounds so silly saying this…but knowing Pez has a fresh litter box! Taking care of my kitty girl!

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Going to eat Lunch with my girl Bianca.. I haven’t seen her in a few months so it’ll be good to catch up! AND… we’re going to eat Pho.. YUM!
2. Running tonite.. I’m going to up my distance to a mile and 3/4. Wish me Luck!

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
1. Spending a few days up in NJ with Peters family…. Driving up Christmas afternoon…I love his family… and I’m excited to be with them this Christmas!
2. This Sunday… after I am DONE with the final move at the house on Saturday.. reorganizing my clothes into my dresser.. and REALLY settling in to the house just that final bit more. I’m excited to hang my AWESOME Banana Leaf Mirror in the Dining Room.. and to have my coffee table and rug back with me….that is going to go SO well with the Red Sofa!! It’ll be nice to have my things in our space more…

1 person I am going to appreciate:
The fact when I REALLY look back on my life the past few years.. EVERYTHING has worked out EXACTLY as it should have…. True it hasn’t been without it’s painful moments.. but there has also been a lot of amazingly beautiful and wonderful moments too.. Filled with laughter.. love and learning… I honestly wouldn’t be where I am today if I had done anything differently… It just goes to prove that I should ALWAYS trust myself.. NOT to doubt myself… no matter what.. That NOTHING I do is wrong.. just takes me to the next step that is next on my journey. Doesn’t take away the pain.. tears.. and moments of fear… but that’s why we’re here to face and learn from them.. so in a Bigger Picture.. it makes it all worth it.

Much Love,
Kerilyn