Hi there my lovely love bugs!!!

What’s up? It’s Wednesday… last day of work before a 4 day weekend! Woo Hoo!!! I’m half excited and half anticipatory of this weekend…beginning the moving out process this weekend. Both Friday and Saturday I’m going to be Shaking my Tail Feather.. enlisting my sister, Naomi Possibly and My honey to help with this.

I won’t ramble on and on today… onto 3 things 2 things :

3 things that make me happy:
1. Put on my pants today.. getting BIG on me! Wahoo!!! I’m thinking.. it’s only the end of November.. I have NINE and half months before September festivities… if both myself and others can see me losing weight NOW..can you imagine what the change in my body will be by then!! I’m excited!!! And honestly I’m running because I like to… yes.. the thinning of the body is also a goal and a bonus.. but I honestly do not feel like running after work is a chore.. Anyone that knows me knows that I got up to six miles a day.. lost 70 lbs before…. and I enjoyed it then too.. this feels like a repeat of that.
2. Not having to wake up early for the next few days. That will be good any way you look at it!
3. Peter fixed my turn signal in my car so it doesn’t go ghetto fast… it’s been ghetto for over a month now.. My honey is the best!

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Running of course.
2. Honestly I don’t have anything to do tonite (Anyone available? Want to hang out with little ‘ol me?) I guess I’ll go grocery shopping for tomorrow.. and chill.

2 long term things I’m looking forward to:
1. Naomi and I are going to see Slumdog Millionaire on Sunday! It looks like a REALLY good movie!!!
2. Peter was singing this “I got you something great for Christmas” song last nite.. and is telling me I’m going to love it.. so now I’m excited to see what it is!!! He’s really good about keeping surprises.. a surprise.. (which is cool .. i like surprises) but i’m excited to see what it will be!
3. On Friday, December 12th.. My girl Kristy and I are going to go to the United States Army Band Christmas Concert !!! Yippee!!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
My co-worker/designer Bob… He has helped me with my running.. (he runs 3.5 miles every day) and so we talk about it.. talk about Shoes.. I watch him eat fruit every day… so he’s inspired me to eat an apple and banana every day. He’s given me a runners log… and two running books to read. It makes me happy to have someone to talk to about changes in runs from day to day. (I’m at a 10 minute mile.. which is just fine with me!) Thanks Bob!

Ok ya’ll.. hope you have a great Turkey Day… enjoy celebrating with your families wherever you are. I am grateful for you… being in my life.
Gobble Gobble!
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Hiety Ho my loverlies!!!

How are you? I’m just peachy!! Tuesday….. not as cold as yesterday thank goodness. Tomorrow is the last day of the work week.. SO happy about that!!! I am feeling so good the past week or so.. it’s like something clicked in my brain.. and clear understanding has moved in and I am feeling SO good about myself and where my life is going!!! Yippee!!!

Ok.. not to dilly dally… onto 3 things 2 things :

3 things that make me happy:
1. I am sitting in this new FABULOUS chair at my office.. The Herman Miller Embody Chair!! (Check it out!!!) My office is also a showroom… where clients come to the office to check out furniture/chairs/etc… so we got this new chair in as a demo chair and usually I don’t really change chairs.. I have been using my chair for over 2 years now.. but when i saw this chair.. and then sat in it.. wowee. It is so comfortable.. and unique looking.. LOVE It!!!
2. Had a REALLY good run last nite.. mile and half starting to come easy.. LOVE that.. barely sweating at the end of run.. SUCH a good sign!!!
3. Went over to Naomis house after getting my nails done last nite.. HOLY MOLY!! She had the bathroom renovation done.. It looks AMAZING!!!! It doesn’t look AT ALL like the same bathroom I used for 2 years.. Naomi honey.. You have GREAT Taste (Matthew… when you come to visit sometime.. you HAVE to go to Naomis and check out the house.. it looks SO different!!)

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Running of course.. I think another week or so of a mile and half and I’ll go up to mile and 3/4. My goal of 3 miles by January might be delayed a month…. but meh.. can only go as far as my body goes..and I’m doing pretty good!
2. My honey is home today… Enjoying his day off.. and he’s making Eggplant Lasagna tonite for dinner!! YUMMY!!!! Looking forward to spending the evening with him.!!!

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
1. I’m waiting on my new pair of shoes to come in!!! Today? Tomorrow? Next week? Who knows!!!
2. Since the wonderful woman that does my eyebrows is on vacation this week.. I might treat myself to an eyebrow wax at my FAVORITE Salon/Store.. Aveda (The spa is Circe but they use Aveda!!) On the pricey side for a brow wax.. (20 bucks… ouch!) but meh..I AM WORTH IT!!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
All my wonderful friends.. Thank You for being there for me.. for supporting me.. for loving me when I don’t love myself. Thank You for being there this year.. when I really didn’t know what I was doing..allowing me to not know gently as I figure it out.. For being “real” with me.. and not sugar coating something that might be hard to hear. I love you for it. For helping me laugh.. and allowing me to cry (and cry I have! Whew!) I am a better person for having you all in my life. Thank You.

As I sashay into the day.. I wish you a good one!
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Morning!!!

How are you my lovely little fireflies? I’m great this morning!!! I just feel better and better every day!! Ok so I don’t know if I told you.. the owners of the house are selling.. and they decided to release us from our Lease a month earlier! Thank goodness.. Saving a thousand bucks that’s not being wasted! So begins the journey of hauling all the stuff OUT of the house… which is fine.. I’m already settled in with Peter at the house.. so it’s just putting stuff in storage until we change locations.. or move away… (1-1/2 to 2 years) Thankfully my parentals have been gracious enough to let me put my boxes and little furniture I have in their basement!!! So I don’t have to pay for storage! Woo Hoo! Thank You Parentals!!! My wonderful sister came Saturday to help me organize the basement.. to purge.. I really don’t have THAT much stuff… (I always say that but when it comes to actually moving it is another story! Ha!) SO.. as of my birthday (December 31st) that chapter of my life will officially be over and whatever remnants of healing I have to do still (there is a bit lingering around) can begin then… I knew that I wasn’t going to fully be able to heal until this chapter is crazy glued shut. Then.. 2009 is going to be a spectacular year!!! September being the Month of celebration!!! WOO HOO!!! Oh my gosh.. to start another chapter …immersed in love.. and excitement of what is to come!! I am SO excited!!!

ok ok.. enough rambling Kerilyn.. onto 3 things 2 things :

3 things that make me happy:
1. My favorite artist romantic “Brave on the Rocks” spirit woman welcomed her new son into the World!!! Check them out!!! Welcome Cedar!!!!
2. I’m setting up my studio space at the house and it’s coming together really nicely.. I need to get my desk lamp at the house to finish it off and i’ll be ready to rock and roll!!!
3. I’m wearing this dress today that, just a month ago.. fit me a little snuggly and today.. it’s pretty loose on me!!! Yippee!!! Kristine told me she can tell I’m losing weight! I love to hear this.. keep it coming!!!
4. My Matthew is leaving Iraq in less than a week!!! Oh man!!! SO happy for him!!!
5. I got an amazing email from a high school friend Meredith this weekend.. Wow.. I haven’t talked to her since High School.. I SO look forward to catching up with her!!!

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Running of course!!!
2. Getting my nails done! I broke 2 nails at the house on Saturday and 1 of them is patched up with a band aid.. THEN I’m going to my girl Naomis house to check out her new bathroom renovation!!!

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
1. December 20th.. I am taking my love to an awesome Christmas Concert with Jim Brickman ! – He is my favorite Pianist.. and.. little story for you.. back in 1996.. when Peter and I first met .. before I moved to Savannah.. I told Peter about Jim Brickman and bought him a CD to listen to.. Peter has kept that CD all these years.. so it’s going to be nice to go with him to listen to the soothing christmas music that I love! We’ll go out to eat before hand.. and have a lovely christmas evening together!!!! Yippee!!!
2. NOT having to wake up early for FOUR WHOLE DAYS this weekend!!! Wahoo!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
My sister.. I know I always talk about how wonderful she is.. but honestly. if it weren’t for her.. I wouldn’t have gotten as far as I did at the house on Saturday!! She is there for me… 100% I can FEEL it.. She helps me when I want to dilly dally… keeping me focused.. as she has been saying.. “Eye on the Prize” and I couldn’t agree more! Thanks Krissykins.. I love you!!!

Ok.. hope you have a great short week!
Check out my new picture of my Pez girl on my flickr page!!
Much Love,
Kerilyn

Hiety Ho!!!!

Can you believe that next week is Thanksgiving!!! Holy Moly this year has FLOWN by!!! This year has been the most challenging and most rewarding of my life to date. Truly. For most of you that have been with me for years.. you know i’ve been thru a lot (haven’t we all? that’s why we’re here!) 3 job layoffs.. unemployment.. journey to find my place in my career , finding financial independence, etc.. but this has been the most important challenge to date, I feel.. facing my biggest fear. I guess i’ve always been facing my fears and overcoming them.. this year just feels like a cumulation of the one issue that has been “plaguing” me since I was a little girl.. My self worth. This year has brought me face to face with the truth that I AM worth it.. that I am beautiful and smart.. and valued.. and loved.. warts and all. That I love myself enough to make a decision that was against what my heart wanted… the little voice inside me saying “You’re deserve so much more Kerilyn!!!” And, while it hurt like hell (and it has) this has also been a testimony to my own self worth. It’s been a tug of war.. naturally inclined to NOT believe I was worth it due to my own conditioning… and having to leave a relationship that I did love and care for that I wasn’t receiving what I deserved.. and then being with someone who constantly tells me I’m worth it.. and having to take baby steps to really start to believe it… what a ride this has been!!! That I don’t have to compete for love or BEG for it.. I am learning just how much I have used my fear that I wasn’t worth it to sabotage myself.. over and over again… and how much I VOWED to myself that I would face this so I can move past this.. once and for all. To shine a light on the dark places.. uncover the cobwebs.. and bring about a new chapter of health and wealth and prosperity in my life. To be IN LOVE with me.

I’m so proud of myself I can’t begin to tell you. I deserve a great big gold star…A+++!

Whew.. where did that come from? um.. ok.. moving along…
onto 3 things 2 things :

3 things that make me happy:
1. Oh my gosh.. I had a GREAT GREAT GREAT evening last nite!!! Started with a really strong run last nite.. then my girl Kristy and I had a yummy dinner and took the metro into DC to go to see Spearhead !!! The venue was awesome.. the music was awesome.. dancing my booty off and sweating like crazy.. it was awesome!! I think I was smiling the whole time!!! Almost 3 hours of songs and dancing.. my tootsies were a hurting. Then my honey came and Picked us up in his pickup.. how awesome is THAT!!! Door to Door Service.. I love my honey. All in all a picture perfect evening!!! *** CHECK OUT MY PHOTOS FROM FLICKR***
2. Feel great today despite my late nite..Got a late start but I feel really good today strangely. Wearing my favorite shirt!!!
3. I really feel like things are settling down.. and I’m really starting to enjoy my life more.. Sounds crazy.. but I have been on the defense for a while now.. and I can sense a shift to offense and enjoying things much more! Yippee!!!

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Running of course
2. Coming home.. and heating up a wonderful bowl of Peter’s chili… with some cornbread.. and watching my TV Shows I’ve recorded.. and then going to bed EARLY!!!

2 long term things I look forward to:
1. This Sunday I am going to be tutoring an old co-worker (hopefully soon a friend) in CAD. I really enjoy what I do (finally) and was flattered that he emailed ME of all people to help him learn CAD. (and get a little moolah would be nice too!)
2. 4 Day weekend next week!!! Woo Hoo!!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
My sister.. Kristine.. she has become my closest friend to me this past year.. I have leaned on her and we’ve spent more time together this year than I can ever remember as an adult. I am hopeful that this next year will bring some wonderful additions to her and her husband life.. and that she can smile from the inside out!!! I love you little sister!

Ok.. rambling your ears off!!!
Much Love
Kerilyn

PS: I miss you Matthew… just want to say that… I can’t wait to get that text that says your home for good!!!!

Hiety Ho my Lovelies!!!

How are you? I’m GREAT!!! I’m doing SO much better.. wow.. feeling better and better everyday..(in my head that is) really feeling at peace SO much more than I have in the past… shoot.. year? Such a freeing feeling to understand what is happening.. like a light went on. It’s COLD!!! Yesterday we saw our first flurries.. Peter says he thinks we’re going to get a bad snowstorm this year.. i say we’re due a doosy… so I won’t be surprised. Just means I’ll be working from home a day or so.. cause this Kerilyn girl does NOT drive in the snow!!! heh…

ok.. onto 3 things 2 things :

3 things that make me happy:
1. I love my new Blackberry !!! Ok.. I know I don’t NEED a new phone… but it’s cool nonetheless to have it. I have the Red one.. and it’s very cool. I feel like the cool kid with this phone.. ha!
2. Peter was off yesterday and he made his wonderful fabulous Chili and cornbread for dinner.. YUM-O! AND.. He bought us a Brita (amazing how the little things make me so happy) We’ve been needing a Brita for a while..we had a great nite just being together! He and I are really happy… wow.. it’s been an amazing feeling.
3. Running is still going strong.. still at mile and half. Yesterday this little 1 Buck woman was on my treadmill (don’t get me started.. there are only 2 treadmills.. and from time to time a “new” person shows up for a day or so) and they don’t know that there are people that come at the same time… grr) and well.. she ran 2.5 miles.. and so i ran next to her. She was actually a really good influence..I was sorta competing with her.. so my run was strong… keeping up with her.. I didn’t run as much as she did.. but that’s ok. I’ll get there.

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Running of course!
2. TONITE….*drum roll please* my girl Kristy and I are going to the 9:30 club to see Michael Franti & Spearhead !!! WOO HOO!!! I haven’t been to a concert (on a school nite no less) in a LONG time.. I’m really looking forward to it.. and spending time with Kristy!!!

2 long term things I look forward to:
1. Peter and I talked this morning about getting a real tree for christmas!! Yea!! (of course I don’t like having a cut tree.. but maybe I can convince Peter to buy one we can replant!) I really like a real tree vs. a fake one.
2. TURKEY DAY WITH NAOMI AND KRISTY!!! Peter has to work that day (BOO!) and so I can’t count on him to be home for dinner.. but Kristy and Naomi are coming over and Peter and I are going to have everything ready to make a nice meal.. Naomi is bringing her famous pumpkin cake and Kristy is bringing a dish too!! YEA!!!!!
3. Oh.. having the day after turkey day off makes me happy too.. NICE long weekend!!! Kristine and I may go and look at white dresses that weekend….. hmm.. we’ll see.

1 person I’d like to appreciate:
My honey… I have never felt so loved or deserving of love. Peter tells me EVERY day how beautiful and loved I am.. and how much he’s looking forward to spending our lives together. He and I have been together a LONG time (officially since 1999) and I feel more in love with him now.. than I ever have… It’s like we are both walking on a cloud… What a lucky lucky woman I am!!!

Anyway.. Hope your having a great week!!!
As I dash into the day!
Much Love,
Kerilyn

I LOVE LEFTOVERS!!!!

Yes.. you heard me correctly.. there is NOTHING better than to come home.. after work and running and NOT have to think about what I’m going to cook. To open the refrigerator and SEE already prepared food.. just waiting to be heated up… and then gobbled up!

It’s good.. usually better the next day anyway… And the best thing is.. clean up is a cinch!!!

I will always love leftovers.. yum yum yum in my tum.

Life is Good.

Morning!

Hiety Ho!! How are you? I’m actually feeling GREAT today…. whew.. what an amazing roller coaster I’ve been on.. one day UP the next day… DOWN DOWN DOWN…. at this point in my journey.. the difference between up and down is not 50/50.. and the down has taken precedence.. but that makes sense.. I’m working REALLY hard on myself.. and that means actually having to face it.. and not be too afraid of it… which sometimes I really am) But today I feel good… like a pause in time where the clouds part and I can see all the progress I’m making.. and it feels good.

without further adieu… I bring you 3 things 2 things :

3 things that make me happy:
1. I had an AMAZING time with my girlfriend Roxanne last nite (Check out the picture I took of us last nite.. She’s so sparkley!!) Man oh Man..When I’m with Roxanne I feel like a great big electric blanket of love is surrounding me.. keeping me safe while I tell her all the hard work I’m doing on myself.. She is SO supportive of me.. I can FEEL it… She helps me recognize that I am worth it.. and that all this work I’m doing is huge. Thank you Roxy.. I love you with all my heart!!! (oh and our meal was good too!! Yum PF Chengs!)
2. My friend Christy and I had a hard conversation yesterday and she helped me to face my fear.. and didn’t let me “get away” with feeling like the victim and feeling sorry for myself.. Thank You Honey.. I am so grateful.
3. When I come home from work today.. Peter and I will OFFICIALLY have a home phone.. For those of you who call me on my cell.. I have HORRIBLE HORRIBLE cell phone service at and around our place.. HOW frustrating that I am in the middle of a deep conversation with one of my girls and boop.. the call just drops!!! Talk about a dead zone!!! SO.. it brings me SUCH happiness that I will have a home phone that people can call me on when i’m home.. and I can actually enjoy someones call.. not having to walk around the house to try to get a good signal! Argh!!!

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Running.. of course. I also figured out why i’m so sorta addicted to running.. to coincide with the amazing emotional work i’m doing on myself.. I think I’m also.. subconsciously.. shedding the physical pain of what “it” really is all about. I run and I see my inner self.. I look in the mirror afterward and I can SEE her.. the her that is beautiful and worth it and worthy of the best life can offer.. I can see her… and THAT is what I think I’m running for.. a daily reminder that I am worthy of it all. Does this make sense?
2. I have to work late tonite.. (Work is BUSY!!) so when I get home.. I will have a phone to call someone.. AND.. leftover Meatloaf that Peter made.. YUM YUM!!!
3. Peter merged our cell phone plan so I will be on his plan and I can cancel mine.. so what did he do?? He got me a Blackberry !!! Oh man.. I’m already an email junky.. I can only imagine what this is going to do with my addiction to checking emails!!! (Secretly I’m REALLY excited!!!)woo hoo!!!

2 long term things I look forward to:
1. Friday nite.. my girl Davina invited me out for drinks at Rosa Mexicano in DC.. YUM.!!! Margaritas and Guacamole!!! YES!!!
2. Next Wednesday… My girl Kristy and I are going to see Spearhead!!! I am so excited!!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
Honestly.. I have some amazing women in my life right now that are there by my side on a regular basis.. helping me through this “Dark nite of the Soul” part of my journey.. and I’d like to thank them.. Auntie, Kristine, Christy, Roxanne, Naomi, Michelle and Kristy… You have been my rock thru this.. all of you at different times.. letting me lean on you with all my fears.. and you.. without batting an eyelash.. don’t even think twice.. your there.. saying “no.. REALLY lean on me”.. Allowing me to call/email/text you on a regular basis when I feel scared.. and never making me feel like what I’m doing is stupid… for REALLY knowing what “this” is all about. I can say I know I am where I am in my healing because of them. And I cannot BEGIN to tell them how Grateful I am. Thank You for holding me up when I have been too scared to face my fears.. Thank you for holding my hand when all I want to do is run away.. Thank you for putting your arm around me and with gentle force.. whispering in my ear that I can do this. Even when I try to convince you that I can’t… Thank You for loving me.. more than I currently love myself.. but it’s important that you KNOW that it is my goal to love myself as much as you love me. I WILL get there. Thank You.

I am a rich woman.. Through and through..
Much Love.
Kerilyn

Morning!!!

How are you today? It is an absolutely beautiful day here today… the trees.. my drive to work in the morning.. is like driving thru a painting… The trees are ABSOLUTELY breathtaking.. red at the top.. then orange.. yellow and green at the bottom.. it’s like the tree houses it’s own rainbow.. Amazing.. I just wanted to get out of my car and take pictures.. I don’t understand who can get to work in a bad mood after having driven thru such lovelyness. And it’s warm out today.. going to be in the mid-70′s. PERFECT!!! SUCH a great day to feel alive!!! AND.. it’s Friday no less.. and even more.. PAYDAY!!! YEE HAW!!!!

ok… without further adieu…3 things 2 things

3 things that make me happy:
1. I feel really pretty today.. wearing my favorite brown dress.. with my funky wood necklace…. such a nice day out…. going to hang out with my girl Naomi tonite… we’re going to eat Indian (YUM!)
2. Peter just called me.. he got Fiona.. the scooter running…. So i’ll get to ride it for the first time tomorrow!! Yea!!!
3. I had a really good nite of sleep.. changed the sheets (just something so relaxing about sleeping in clean sheets.. and I’ll tell ya I change my sheets once a week) then waking up to such a beautiful day.. the sun shining in the window.. my kitty girl laying on the couch.. really good cup of coffee.. I feel blessed!

2 things I look forward to today:
1. I took yesterday off from running.. so i’m excited to get my mile and half in today.. Amazing how much you miss it.. even after one day.
2. Therapy after running.. then i’m going to have Indian with Naomi then I might go out for a drink with Peter afterward (Matthew.. we’re going to Cafe Salsa in Old Town for Mojitos.. will drink one for you!!!)

2 long term things I look forward to:
1. Tomorrow Kristy and I are going to get out feet done.. pedicures.. MUCH needed!!! Unfortunately I really bruised two of my toes when I was running with bad shoes so I’m sure the ladies doing my feet won’t be happy about that. Eek!
2. Three concerts in the next few months…Spearhead, Jim Brickman and Thievery Corporation Yippee!!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
Gotta say Peter.. he makes me feel so beautiful… and loved. I am so grateful for him. Seriously.

Have a great weekend! Go out and enjoy this beautiful day!
(ok.. not if your in North Dakota.. eek!)
Much Love
Kerilyn