Yawn…. hey everyone…

It’s 9pm Thursday nite and I’m bout to go to bed (I know.. your saying.. it’s WAY to early to go to bed.. but I’m pooped!!!) Today was a nice day..nothing exciting or saddening happened today.. had a mediocre day.. work.. home for lunch (didn’t want to go back to work) after work I tried accessing how much stuff I have to pack (yea.. a lot). My sister came.. we went to Outback for dinner (yum) but we both were so tired that the conversation was not as vivacious as it should be, seeing as how I haven’t seen or talked to her really in 2 weeks.. so here I sit.. ready for bed..

Ready for the weekend.. weekend of packing, and painting.. and packing and painting.. painting the kitchen cabinets in the new place.. Painting a wall in the basement, soon to be my office, with chalkboard paint.. (hopefully I’ll get to it) gotta pull up the rest of the staples from Naomi pulling up the carpet, to prepare the finishers to sand, wax and finish the floors (they’re going to look SO good) Naomi has the electrician coming tomorrow to change out the old, screw in fuses with an upgraded fuse box.. I feel SO blessed.. I’m going to have a new house once I’m done!!!

Anyway.. if you are free and in the area.. give me a call.. I’d love help… Just so you know.. cell is 703-626-9790.

Have a great weekend my family and friends.. Tread lightly on yourselves.

Ancora Imparo.

Love you all,

Kerilyn

“You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, “I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.” . . . You must do the thing you think you cannot do. “- Eleanor Roosevelt

I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned the hard way that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the most of it without knowing whats going to happen next.”Gilda Radner

Life is like playing the violin solo in public and learning the instument as you go.”

- Edward Geroge Bulwer-Lytton

“Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction.” – Antoine de Saint-Exupery (a recent repeat but I love this one!!)

hola mi senoritas y senors…

how art thou? Is it Friday yet? dang.. it’s not. well it’s official.. officially chilly out.. officially the break out the sweaters and lightweight jackets season.. put away the flip flops (a move I resist till I HAVE to) and break out the knee high stockings. It’s FALL. I have a feeling this fall might prove to be a very good one.. I can sense some changes around the corner.. and what a great time for change.. love it!

High: First off.. I went to this Interior Design trade show in Baltimore today.. originally my boss and I were going to go but my boss got in a car accident (don’t worry, he’s fine) and so I was able to go by myself … was SO happy about that. My high of the work day was seeing 2 specific people at this trade show… two very genuine and beautiful people in a sea of, TO ME, those that could care LESS about others and more about their own welfare. When I saw these two kindred spirits, I felt ‘so much myself’. I look forward to getting to know them more in the coming months.. I called the woman at the Corcoran today.. and she called me back!!! She’s going to call me on Monday (she is out of town till then) to set up an appointment!!! WOO HOO!! Getting her message tonite was like hearing I won something.. fingers crossed!!!! and THEN.. I had a date tonite.. a tall drink of water (6’3″) named Lee.. a fellow former New Yorker… I had a great time..went to eat yummy food.. he loves to read.. (love that) and is a cutie pie… (is that dorky to say? cutie pie?) anyway.. I’m looking forward to our next date already!!

Low: That trade show.. eww.. I was surrounded by Interior Designers.. talking Interior Design.. something I really.. have no yearning to talk about.. True.. I am completely intrigued with the things I saw.. the fabrics, furniture, etc.. but seeing all these pretentious, stuck up people.. COMPLETELY reconfirmed my distaste for my profession..and actually made me so happy that my passion for it has morphed into something more for me. Maybe I feel this way because I feel my spirit has been broken with respect to design.. going thru 5 jobs in 5 years.. but part of it is the fact that for the most part.. and this I didn’t really, honestly know.. how much Interior Design involves dealing with superficial and sometimes mean people (Davina, Jen Nelson, Shannon, Mehri, Megghan …. KNOW I am not talking about you AT ALL!!!!) I was at this show.. like almost repulsed.

Anyway.. as I ramble.. I wish it was Thursday nite.. and tomorrow was Friday.. I’m ready for this weekend.. ya know what??? I have Monday off! Columbus Day!! Woo hoo! (I have been feeling lately like I’m always taking a day off.. but ya know what.. this one is paid!) k.. I’m off to bed.

thanks for listening my friends.

ancora imparo – “I am still learning” in Latin.

love you all,

kerilyn

“If you wish to glimpse inside a human soul and get to know a man, don’t bother analyzing his ways of being silent, of talking, of weeping, of seeing how much he is moved by noble ideas; you will get better results if you just watch him laugh. If he laughs well, he’s a good man.”– Feodor Mikhailovich Dostoyevsky

“Total self-esteem requires total and unconditional acceptance of yourself. You are a unique and worthy individual, regardless of your mistakes, defeats and failures, despite what others may think, say or feel about you or your behavior. If you truly accept and love yourself, you won’t have a driving need for attention and approval. Self-esteem is a genuine love of self. Stop all adverse value judging of yourself. Stop accepting the adverse value judgments of others. Purge yourself of all condemnation, shame, blame, guilt & remorse.”– Unknown

hey ya’ll.

ok.. it’s tuesday nite… I am feelin pretty good.. (well.. the debates were tonite and scrubs wasn’t on.. that made me feel poopy) today was my favorite kinda day.. the FIRST day.. of wearing warmer clothes.. waking up and it’s chilly out.. brisk air.. breathing in and it feels fresh.. LOVE this time of year!!!!! My favorite!!! the sky was really beautiful.. sporratic fluffy clouds.. so clear..

High: Had a uneventful day at work.. nothing too exciting.. got a cute message from my friend Shan who told me that Zach Braff was on the radio this morning.. thanks shan!!! Boss was out this morning and so it was chill… went to lunch and then took a drive out to our warehouse to pick up something.. it was a beautiful drive.. and I enjoyed being out of the office by myself.. after work I went to the gym.. worked out hard! and then met my girlfriend Stephanie in D.C. for dinner.. good to catch up! (She told me that Zach Braff was HERE!!! in D.C.!!!! I didn’t know about it!!!!) tomorrow my boss and I are going to go up to Baltimore to a design trade show.. then I have a date.. Lee.. he’s 6’3″..we’ll see.

Low: The no scrubs thing tonite… dang. Other than that I can’t think of anything… good thing.

Anyway.. my posts still seem short.. I’m a little preoccupied, in my mind, with all the packing I have to do.. all the things I have to get together… and the time is a ticking. Tomorrow is the big day.. I call the Dir of Personnell at the Corcoran.. FINGERS CROSSED EVERYONE!!! I’m going to see if she’s free for Monday (I’m off.. Columbus Day!) as soon as I hear something.. I’ll let you know!!!

k.. nite nite.

Ancora Imparo.

love you all,

Kerilyn

a GREAT poem, brought to you by my friend Kyra.. thanks K..

The Journey

By Mary Oliver

One day you finally knew

what you had to do, and began,

though the voices around you

kept shouting

their bad advice -

though the whole house

began to tremble

and you felt the old tug

at your ankles.

“Mend my life!”

each voice cried.

But you didn’t stop.

You knew what you had to do,

though the wind pried

with its stiff fingers

at the very foundations,

though their melancholy

was terrible.

It was already late

enough, and a wild night,

and the road full of fallen

branches and stones.

But little by little,

as you left their voices behind,

the stars began to burn

through the sheets of clouds,

and there was a new voice

which you slowly

recognized as your own,

that kept you company

as you strode deeper and deeper

into the world,

determined to do

the only thing you could do -

determined to save

the only life that you could save.

Hey folks..

How are you all? I’m good.. bit pooped.. but good. Been a long past few days.. but today was my reward.. took today off so I had today to myself.. to enjoy.. and I have.. Left for the funeral Friday evening.. overall was a good weekend.. supporting family and trying to do what I can to help… Came back.. today.. I got up.. went to the gym (go me!) then I went to go see this AWESOME, MIND BLOWING movie called “What the #$@% do we know” (http://whatthebleep.com/) great movie.. walked out of there.. feeling so good..

I’m sorry this is so short.. I’m tired.. and crampy..(sorry guys) and ready to go to sleep and start anew tomorrow!

till tomorrow.. be back to normal high/low format.

Ancora Imparo.

Love you all,

Kerilyn